Wednesday, January 7, 2009
" knowing no phone would ever ring to a voice that cared and no door would ever open to let in a warm hug " taken from a book im currently reading title: Apaches authour: Lorenzo Carcaterra this part is about a old lady who's old and got it all..but she still has no one to share it with and she's like 5o plus..born rich and has a status..has everyting that eventually add up to nothing cuz there is no love..haiz.. but the book is not about her.. its just a vry small part...
this is as lonely as it gets.. sigh.. i dun wana die alone... but im just too scard of being hurt.. i dun wana end up like my mom.. i pity her... she must be really lonely.. argh...
on tuesday..when saying goodbye to fa.. we alwys hug.. i hug her tight n i didnt want to let go if i could.. haiz... i dun knw la wat wrong with me..im just going haywire.. i guess the stories that i have been telling .. the people that i have been pushing away and cursing wasnt the real cause of it.. i guess there is something else that is bothering me.. but im not to sure wat it is.. all this is just a cover from the real hidden truth.. im i depress or something? im i in denial? whats my real problem! argh..
you know if you hate someone your just hating yourself..and im a hypocrite when it come to that xoxo redsummer`i hope i fix myself soonLabels: mrs lonely
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