cherry on top of my day .

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

your anger Haunts me all my life..

im alwys scard of you..

did u know that?

i guess u do..

thats y u alwys have it your way

i dont dare say the wrong things when its just me and u

if there is someone else..

and i may be able too..

but i alwys have to choose my words wisely

and have proper evidence against u..

thats how scary u are..

now ur ok..

u rarely gets angry..

but when u doo...

all i can think of is god..

i keep praying he will save me..

and hoping you wont kill me

yea..

its true..

my thoughts go wild

when ur at ur worst..

my heart will pump so fast

that i cant hardly breath..

and i get so scard to sleep..

i'll be on guard..

every sound you make...

is every threat to me..

the sound is worst than a sound of thunder..

i keep my eyes open..

my ears wide..

when i too tired..

i will eventually fall aslp..

but i wont notice it..

until i wake up the next day..

and i thank allah when i wake up safe..

dont think i dun bitch abt u here ur safe..

its just that im so darn scard of u

that i cant possible publish something that i dun like abt u here...

im still a scary cat when it comes to you..

if only u knew how i felt..

arghh!

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Monday, October 27, 2008

been awhile since ur gone..

was i the reason u ran away again?
cuz i was the only one,
that can make u feel not lonely..
but i didn't do my part..
i didn't help to keep u here..
i merely give u empty promises..
do u hate me?

i stumble upon ur "new" blog..
but its of no use now..
the last update was on September..
den u went off again..
without a word,
as usual..

i guess u cant trust me
i wanted u too
i guess.. i was too harsh on u
well, reality bites my dear..
i was trying to knock some sense into u
it didnt work,
did it..

y u keep running...
where are u going to go?
your home is here...
with us..
with your family..

i might not alwys be there
u can tell me anything
just dont lie..
tell me the truth..
your real problem..

its all too late now
all too late for words
or even action..
your long gone,
not a sight of u...

we all miss u..
but we're tired of you doing this,
time and time again..

don't u pity ur parents?
i do,
they're not getting any younger u know
grow up for once please..

only time will tell
when u will come home..
when you do,
i hope its for real..

to my dearest ___
xoxo,
redsummer`reading your blog make me thought that ur still with us..but when i realised and saw the dates ur no longer anywhere near home..

Labels: been awhile since ur gone..genuiene feeling from me to you

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Long time no see gf..

♥ meet up with Gf Ct
at toh guan and walk all the way to west mall

walk ard Westmall bought New pair of shoes at Converse..hehe..

sukenye..

then bought lots of food and Bubble tea

when to lepak at a near by play grd..haha

Camwhore time...

Not really satisfied with the pics ah..

but i like this one below..hehe

this is Ctikos..hehe...

me..

now u can see how fat i really am..haha

forgotten to upload tis photo just now

the day FA and me send Kak SYa off to the airport...

you know i MISS HANGING OUT WITH YA

XOXO

redsummer`i had fun today...hehe..

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Captured Moments

1st Up HaMMies...

3wks old...

HaMMie on A LaPpie..

Sleeping together on the wheel...

So CUTEE!!!!

I just Find tis cute & funny...

NoW Sch Time..

haha..feeling Gossip gurl..

China phone la..Naznye..so like gg right?

the phone i mean...you know the part where they got a msg from gg

and everyones like looking at their phones..this is more like B's phone

Our normal chill out place cannot be entered anymore..

so that they we were finding a new place..

and we ended up in the staff meeting room..hahahah..

there is alwys time to snap a photo here and there..

even in the classroom..just dun get caught..haha

Mom and i made these...

i called it "CUPCAKE COOKIES"

mom's creation...they really do look like cupcakes right..

YummY

I was bored yesterday...

usual boring saturday night...

so i painted my nail like french manicure..using a transparent colour and highlighter pink colour..

the pink my sis bought it at pasar malam..fut n colour..

but when u put fully on the nails and yr skin is dark like mine..it really look like u put on highlighter..haha...

it would look great on the lighter skin tone gals..

enjoy...

im going off now..

need to bath and get ready..late liao..meeting Gf Ct..

to hang out and get my shoes..hahaha

cant wait...bored la sitting at home

you know I LOVE TAKING PHOTOS

XOXO
redsummer`just say u miss me...hahaha

Labels: captured moments-hammies and sch

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Saturday, October 25, 2008

many things in mind

just 2 wks
and im already abit stress up..
oral presentation test
not understanding some modules
once i step into the class
i already have a headace
can i cope?
there is already 2 modules and 1 elective..
and i received a msg that i have another elective..
im having doubts..
can i do this..
the tiring journey
early wake up calls
ending late
not understanding a thing
how do i manage all this...
i already have no life
and tis makes it worst
i left 6months or less till i finish sch
but is it enough to study eveything
and aces it all at the end of it?
how do the others do it,
enjoying life and passing all the test?
i tried to manage my time..
but i will get to tired to follow it
or to LAZY to do it..
should i take it a step at a time?
will there be enough time or will i lack abit
arghh....
i think
i just think and worry to much..
do u know how to be on off mood and not think of anything?

xoxo,
redsummer~please let me have a fun this weekend before sch starts again..haiz

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Thursday, October 23, 2008

Selamat Jalan...

1stly...i just dont like being the middleman..overall i like both of you..
so u gals just have to talk and work things out..
put ur guard down,bring down ur egos and STOP being stubborn..
we just left like 5 months together..
and u gals see each other everyday..is it really worth to ignore or have a dont bother attitude..
y wana make it a sad and akward 5 months...aftr tis 5 months than ur prob la wat u wana do..
but now we are alwys together..if it keeps carrying on like this..
it feels like something missing..wasnt the old times better...
i miss the hugs...a sincere hug..not a hug cuz u hav too or better yet no hug at all...
you two were like so close last time.. evrytime must sit together..
please la just tallk and work tings out..what do u have to lose to just talk to eachother
and share wat bothering you right? tak mati pe..

anyway..
when to the airport with fa.. to send my sis off to Bandung..
haha...1st time i ride on fa's bike..i scard like hell la seh... i just hold her beg tight..
but after awhile i wasnt that scard ah..da okok je ah..best jugak eh..
hahaha...aftr that when back to sch for last lesson....actually that all..highlight of my day today..ride on fa's bike..she so small i so big..hahha..

to KAK SYA
have a safe tripp..
selamat pergi selamat pulang..
jln lupe ole ole nye ..hahaha

you know I JUST WAN THE OLD TIMES BACK
XOXO
redsummer`dont wait to long..its our last yr together..aftr that we'll just meet and say hi on the streets...

Labels: selamat jln

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Sunday, October 19, 2008

Saturday, 18 Oct 08
Bday Party Cum Raya
@ Mami's place..

Nenek turn 72 yrs old..
Kak Sya turn 26 yrs old...

Bdays Gurls...
Oppss Ladies? Women? erm..

all the CuzZies and the bday gurls..

there was so much food.. 2 Types of Fried Noodles,Fried Macaroni, Fried Rice, Curry, salad, cocktail, Cake and raya Kuihs..haha.. nothing much happen ah..only that all the other family came in baju raya and our family came with half2..except for me..haha...mls la..

you know..................
XOXO
redsummer

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redsummer

Friday, 17 Oct 08
Jln Raya with Gfs

Waiting for Fa.

In the Train..

Tamp interchange..
meet up with the others

Lizzie & Me

Idah's Crib

From Tamp to Punggol..
Lyana's Crib

Su & Me

Me!!hehe

Fa,Liz & Fa(Me)

Sape Paling Vouge?
Take ur pick..hahaha..

To Sengkang..
Sue's Crib

Fa & Fa.. redheads..hehe

Sengkang to Aljunid
Fa's Crib

IpUt & RizQil..
CUtiee NOttie Duo..

Aljunid to Toh Guan
My Crib

haha..for fun..

Toh Guan to Woodlands
Ain's Crib

Idah & Me..

they actually plan to jln raya on a sat last wk before sch starts..
but Liz and me didnt wana go..liz has her own reason la..i was just plainly lazy..haha..
when we meet up in sch..den we physco eachother than we finally going..haha.. fiza only physco2 oso still nvr go...this time raya finish early so early that we get to chill till 12 am.. last yr it was until 2 am..haha..highlight of the day was the two cute toddles and Ice cream Rainbow at Ain's place..hahah..yeah ICe cream la seh...YuMmY!!

you know I ♥ my Gfs
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: jln raya with gfs

redsummer

Saturday, October 18, 2008

HAPPY BDAY KAK SYA!!

DA makin tua kak aku ni...

dua2 pun da tua la...haha..cume nampak muda je..

kembang ah tu kn kn..haha

Enjoy ur bday..

yesterday Jln raya with GFs..

will do full update when i have the time..

today were having a Bday party for kak sya and Nenek..same birthdate la katakn...
nak kene siap2...dun understand y my mom nak suruh kai lawa2 segala..padahal bday utk org tua2 je..tshirt n shorts je tak leh eh? ahaha..

some pics taken during the jln raya...

Fa's Crib

Me and my fav boy..IPUT

anyway..Sue..i upload all the other pics at my multiply liao..

just for u and any of the gals yg nak pics semlm..hahah

click here to view more pic http://syafa.multiply.com/photos/album/13

Enjoy...

you know ppl get older every year...

XOXO

redsummer`i enjoyed jln raya with my gfs..haha..eventhough i lazy..haha

redsummer

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Ur near but u seem so far away...

haha..the 1st pic was taken on tuesday..
today oso we went home late..haha...start late..finish late..no break..
and im so freaking hungry..so we all went for dinner at LJS.. haha..
aftr that suppose to go home..den someone said go see shoe..so go see..suppose to go see den go home..hahaha but we ended up going to alot of shops..hahaha.. and i just knew today that east point got pet shop..so many hammies la sehh..CUTTEEEE!!
i dun kknw y im can go GAGA ovr hammies so easily when i have like 16 hammies now at home..hahaha... I just love them la so adorable..hehehe...den i reach home like at 7.30..wah lau everyday like tis can die...but i just wana lepak seh..if only i stay near..so easy seh.,.haha

you know I ♥ HAMMIES..still do...
XOXO
redsummer`hate u ah monster..wth..hahaha

Labels: ur near but u seem so far..haha

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Monday, October 13, 2008

pics of me in my belo uniform..
Ban Mian and friends..
bebual cam nari last day of sch..padahal just 1st day of a new semester...
bsk2 leh sambung laa...
haha..sleep in the Mrt as usual
while Ain and Fiza talk, talk and talk like no 2moro..
when i wake up they still talking..haha
that's all for today..
xoxo,
redsummer

Labels: 1st day of sch aftr a long break

redsummer

Sunday, October 12, 2008

smiles turn into frowns?!

Argh.. sch starts 2moro.. yea i was sick of sitting at home..
but i dun feel lik going to sch neither..cuz the journey to/back from sch is so tiring..
hahaha..nonetheless i still have to go...well atleast i get to meet my frens again right?
so its not that bad..haha... i feel like as if i didnt step into sch for like a yr but actually it only been like 6months plus? attachment plus holiday.. attachment was fun and meet some funny and crazy ppl miss them.. holiday was abit draggy..nothing much happen..wasnt a fullfilling holiday..haha... ive checked the timetable..well atleast i dun have to wake up that early every day..only on thu and fri cuz i start at 8..sigh* but better yet..so it will end early and i will have the whole afternoon ahead for me..hehe...im guessing 2moro is going to be draggy also cuz its the 1st day aftr a long break.. and there wont be nothing much..hopefully it ends early..hahaha

you know ____
XOXO
redsummer`miss monster la seh..hahah...meet up soon beb..

Labels: sch here again..arghhhhhhhhh..haha

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