cherry on top of my day .

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

To: Khairul

Hee... Have a Safe trip...
do take care of yourself there..
2months seh... Kecian die..
all for the country la katakn..
And please Don't forget about me..Haha (Thick skin)
Sorry made you sad and dissapointed tadi..Bluekz!
Jangan lupe belikn kite benda kat sane.. Mcm da kwn lame gitu ah..

anyway...
his the guy who came to send life jacket at work
and said your the gal in frenster name Redsummer right? haha
i really had no idea who he was till i saw his frenster.. and we've been Real friends ever since..
chat in Msn and meet at wrk je... kla cita die boring ah(inside joke)
so i will just keep it to myself eh...
Haha...

once again Well wishes to you my fren..
Selamat pergi Selamat balik...
jgn jadi mas selamat sudah.. k merepek...haha..

redsummer~i can forecast that my holiday is going to be a boring one..argh!!

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redsummer

Dinner with "my siblings"..
♥Ain(The eldest daughter) & Liz(the last daugther) ♥

Presenting..
Philips Daughters..:P

or otherswise known as
Uncle Raj "Angels"..hehe
Ain nampak kurus seh dlm pic ni?
jari kau yg kurus..hehe..joking la..

so Neoprint like pose..
look at Liz fingers..
to bad the mirrors abit dirty on ain's side..

Another picture..

there is a few more but not that nice la...
we had KFC..I was SUPER HUNGRY seh today...
and craving for KFC..haha..we went to Entertaiment..
Eat KFC,like duh!, and talk abt Islam.. cam tegah berangan nak jadi baik ah tu...
den head of inside to print out the photo to give to our "Father" 2moro..
we spent the longest time at the instant printing machine..
we couldnt decide which pic to give and what to write on it..
and we finally wanted to print it out the System shut down on us..WTF..
luckly there is a kodak store but we did a quick one and decided not to put anything on it..haha
and this is like the 1st time ever all 3 of us took a picture together...haha..

oh yah..not forgetting

♥ THANKZ CIK LANI !!
for the ride to jrg... the last time i think we will ever get to ride your
HOT RED MAZDA... hehe.. Thanks..

♥ THANKS to BAPAK(Cik Hamzah) and also Cik Jamil too
for alwys TREATING us(ain and me)...

Haiz.. 1 more week to go..
im sure going to miss all the people there...
i cant wait to leave the job but i cant bear to leave the people there..

last photo for the day..
Girl...one of the Hammies..
Cute right so chubby...

you know YOU CAN BEAR SEEING US LEAVE
XOXO to the people wrking in ST LOGISTICS
redsummer`now the show has finally ended i cry when i was typing that msg to u... for ur info i not really in contact with him and yesterday i too delete his contact no. .. but i guess its too late to turn back..

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Monday, July 28, 2008

Can you BRAINWASH me...
please i beg you really..

i really need it...
i need to ERASE THE PAST
all the things that had happen
all the people i use to know
i need to erase them from my mind...
im going crazy..
i seriously think i have a lose SCREW somewhere
i need to erase the memory of remembering these people's BLOG
they don't need/want me anymore
so y do i need to still keep going to their blogs
and keep wishing i was there
and keep thinking of the *What if's
because it wont change a thing anymore..
maybe i should delete my blog or to stop using internet...
better of not touching the computer at all..

I NEED A BRAINWASH..
can you help me?
please..
im losing it here...
please someone..
just knock my head and let me be unconseous..
or let me be in a coma..
so when i wake up
i don't even remeber a single thing
except for my family
then maybe..
maybe i can be happy again
and nothings going to hold me back again..

redummer`trying to erase everythough of any of you..

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redsummer

the truth is..

im not who you think i am
to keep it short

im everything
you every complaint abt in
having a bad friend..

a little warning..
i can be deceiving..
like wat someone said
a devil in deguise..

you might think you know me
but think again..

this is the reason y my 1st sis say
y i dont have long term friends
its because i keep pusing them away..

only a friend as crazy as me will stay
but not to close...
just close enough to know
how real i can be..

ive reflected
and now i understand y
ppl are getting far away from me

i do want to have friends...
just that its just not me
to sugar coat everysingle word
that is coming out of my mouth
im as honest and as fake as can be...

im just a messed up soul
a two face freak like saddy
but after all im only human..
i tend to judge fast
and once i really get to know that person
than my stories will change again

-the End-

redsummer`hate me all you want.. i already lose alot so y not i lose it all.. its all or nothing.. now i rather have nothing i guess..

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redsummer

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Time to reflect

someone told me
to take this time to reflect..
reflect on what had happen,
why things are the way it is now

reflect and change
change the way i do things

i know i was wrong
saying sorry wasnt enough
sorry dosent change what had happen

i dont get it
why its not only you that is ignoring me
others are too
but i don't blame them

i should understand,
i was expecting too much

should just take
whatever i can get..
not ask for more or less
take things as it is

im losing my drive to live,
this reflection time..
or a phase..
has bore me..

i want to move on..
start a new
there is something,
just something
that is holding me back

or should we just continue
where we left of?
i will like that
but i don't think you would..

-the end-

redsummer`get off my head.. y do i keep thinking of you when i dont even cross your mind anymore..

Side note-
dun get me wrong all this posts are not for a guy but for a fren..and yeah not a guy fren either..so buzz off

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redsummer

SAME FREAKING ROUTINE

weekdays is a breeze
work, work, work
and head straight home
no more meet up with someone
to hang out or to go eat..
or kareoke.. miss that

to spize things up
fridays meets up with liy
still some where close to home
or at home..

weekend seem a lilttle draggy
most of them time i want it to end
faster..
but when its too fast..
i just dont want it to end

wash clothes,
spin them,
hang them to dry..

spent most of the time
on the net..
or hours and hours
in front of the tv

wait for dad to take me out
for dinner..
or not..
no more going to town or bugis
for shopping or just hanging out..
smoking sheesha or dancing and singing
at Gotham city..miss that too

when its the weekday
the weekend is all that is on my mind..
when the weekend starts
and its starting to bore me
all i will be thinking abt is the weekday

how confusing can i be..
its simple but yet confusing
i seem to be going in circles..

-the End-

redsummer`im bored out of my mind.. surprising but my back dosent hurt anymore i tot it would hurt so bad since i carry lots of heavy stuff in jantan paradise..haha..pelik tapi benar...

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redsummer

Saturday, July 26, 2008

once again..
make it yours..

Time waits for no one

im not hungry
but yet im eating..
food fills my lonelyness...
i need your warmness to keep me company..

your just another face lost in the crowd..
i cant see you..
cant seem to find you...

i stood there as i froze..
when i realise i was all alone..
where am i?
how long have i been standing here?
i feel as cold as ice..

when i stood there..
past memories of our friendship..
replayed in my mind..

just another vain memory
its too late
to turn back now
hearts change

if you cared,
you say its ok..
your no longer here

im sure your happy
without me..

i will
always, i swear,
remember you

-the End-

redsummer`dont you feel that there is something missing in your life? well, i do.. but who the @#$% cares..thanks..

Friday, 25 July 2008

The Last time that we'll(Ain and me) be in Jantan Paradise

i try to savour every moment
remembering our days there..
every laughter, every smile, every joke...

the familier faces from our 1st time there till yesterday
the Uncles who we worked with
not forgetting one aunty too
the newbies who never fail to amuse us
with their noobness..

the food that we disgust so much
were our pleasure today..
our maggie cups days will never be the same..
coloured cold drinks with smokes at the 1st pour
that quench our thirst..

carrying of heavy black begs till we sweat like we just had our baths..
issueing of items like as if it was a pasar malam
changing items which was stressful at times and mostly funny

the old birds in camofladge(we could still see them)..
cheering, singing and marching with their begs and guns (some imaginary guns)
their loud voices seems one
they were our radio there..
knowing their names by the tags
without them knowing ours..

the toilet that says ladies but there is a standing bowl..
the sneaking into the ladies at the cook house..
the only cleanest and not smelly toilet there..

the made up gossips that filled our free time..
names were given with no reason..
remember the 1st day we made up a song for Jantan paradise..

the free ferry ride back and fro..
only our voices filled the empty space..

this is just the 1st of our last day..some sort like our POP..
next up in 2wks our ORD den ROD From sch next yr...

you know IM GOING TO MISS GOING TO JANTAN PARADISE
xoxo to the uncles and 1 aunty that wrk there and who ever that we made frens with
redsummer`i cant wait for it to end..but somehow i don't want it too..this question keep playing in my mind.."What will happen then,when all of tis is over?"

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redsummer

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

as i always say or used to say..
when you read it make it yours..

so u feel the poetry..

where is my heart?

It's beating,

but i cant find it..

its been days..

i lost myself..

where am i?

y cant i sing my heart out..

i keep talking but no ones replying..

can they hear me?

feeling tired all the time..

how i wish i cant feel tiredness..

its so tiring.. so sickening..

i dun want those feeling..

-The End-

thanks to CraZe for the tip..

redsummer` never ending..still and alwys emotionally tired of everything..

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redsummer

Sunday, July 20, 2008

hunting for a place to eat..

1st up we went to east coast..no parking so we decided to go other place..

headed to Bedok Blk 18 where we use to eat at when i was younger..

there is parking space but the coffee shop turn into just all chinese food..

so no choice but to go to another place..

when to Mak's place..there is parking space..

by the looks of it, there are alot of empty places..

as we came nearer.. there is a small card board which says "reserve" on all of the empty table..

tough luck..

few blocks away there is this place called Chai Chee seafood restraunt..

we were lucky enough there was a table for 4 haha..

Finally we could eat..i wasn't that hungry..

We had seafood lor..DUH!!

CHilli Crab...

Sotong fried with oats

Claypot beancurd

My Favourite..

Prawn..the flour not so nice...

My dad.. not much posing today

Kak ani Licking her fingers..

EwWw...haha

Earlier in the day..

Jiayi aka Airpork came over..

unplanned... just chatted with her on msn den she came...

its always nice to have old friends around..

especially crazy fun friends like her...

the reason was just to tranfer songs.. ended up looking at other people's blog..

and make up our own story like we alwys do.. there was lots of laughter..

alot of catching up to do.. Congrats on passing your tp..

next time drive me ard k.. haha she can drive but dun knw the way...

meet up soon k...

oh yah and i totally forgot abt the GSS..

because i was having too much fun with airpork..

aiya.. i really wana get new tops and bottoms.. now sale ended already..

haiz....

♥ THANKS DAD ♥

for the dinner and driving us ard...

you hardly get to spoil us anymore which i tink u dun really wana..

because later you wallet gona slim down...HAHA..

you know I WANT TO GO SHOPPING WITH YOU

XOXO

redsummer`anymore friends that wana hang out with me? NO? okla i anticipated that liao..haha

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Saturday, July 19, 2008

Fortune Cookie Saturday...
"i ate a fortune cookie and it reads
" a cheerful heart is your medicine to happines"
i really think i need that right now.. but cant seem to find any..
im so moody and gloomy nobody wana get near me..haha"

spending most of weekends with the family now..
i just went to IMM today.. to accompany kak sya get the fortune cookies and have dinner..
had dinner at Spagettie too.. didnt take any pictures cuz i was too hungry.. when the food arrive i eat already.. nothing special la actually.. we walk ard imm intend to get something end up buying nothing.. the shoe i wanted to get from lee cooper the colour i wanted no more size..argh..atleast save some money still i really wanted to get something... nothing that caught my eye or her's boring... 2moro last day of the GSS.. need to go to dhorty to get some shorts or tops.. haiz.. i dun have any shopping buddy now.. i eat alot today.. i think its coming..haha..
still have not done my report or project.. no mood la..

thats all.
how am i suppose to live everyday like a new day when everyday is the same freaking routine..
and i have no one to do spontaneous things with me no more... so how am i to Live life to the fullest everyday?? can u answer that? haha..

anyway someone in msn got me thinking..
he wrote
" its weird when strangers become friends, its even weirder when friends become strangers"
its weird that we were 1st stranger than friends than because of something we became strangers again.. human are so complicated..

you know IM JUST ANOTHER STRANGER
xoxo
redsummer`maybe i should really throw away my fone.. i tink i would sell it than make money.. den money that is use to pay the bill can be use for something else.. wow.. but alot of money with nothing to do with it oso no use.. haha.. gerger

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redsummer

redsummer~

Im Still High up...

now, im just resting..

tired of all the flying around..

but i still can't find myself touching the ground..

i guess i'll just rest at one of the clouds..

will someone come and get me..

i cant do it alone..

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redsummer

Friday, July 18, 2008

EGO
Friday's Word of The Day..
its been awhile sing i did this..
remember i use to be a blog cum dictionary..

–noun, plural e·gos.
1. the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought.

2. Psychoanalysis. the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment.

3. egotism; conceit; self-importance: Her ego becomes more unbearable each day.

4. self-esteem or self-image; feelings: Your criticism wounded his ego.

5.(often initial capital letter) Philosophy.
a. the enduring and conscious element that knows experience.
b. Scholasticism. the complete person comprising both body and soul.

6.Ethnology. a person who serves as the central reference point in the study of organizational and kinship relationships.

the meanings confuse me alittle..
its just like Hypocrite.. very confusing.. you have to really read the meaning and understand it clearly to use it.. like how ppl confuse two face and hypocrite.. hypocrite is somesort like to twoface but in away its not.. get it? haha... im confuse.. i seriously hate feeling or emotions.. IM so tired of it... im getting crazier by the second.. my head hurts.. i cant even breath well...there is alot of sand in my throat... and not forgetting a 1kg bag full of rice on my eyes... argh.. i hate it.. im moody, restless, cant think well.. i notice i keep random things to Liy.. ya.. today our lepak day.. meet liy at imm.. we're both freaaking hungry seh... and im too FICKLED to make up my mind.. too much things la on my mind... what to buy, where to do our farewell party, who to invite, who will come, how much money, who will be kind enough to sms me or call me today, what am i going to do 2moro(which is a SATURDAY) .. argh too many stupid questions poping up in my mind... argh i hate saturdays...
anyway, today spent the whole evening with liy at imm and den headed to my place to eat n talk nonscence and play comp till 11pm.. haha...

oh yah i bought kak ani Fortune Cookies from precious thoughts(liy's idea, and i tot it was cool) and a cute pencil case(mine).. she now back in sch(night class la)...

you know I MISS YOU ***Y**..ALOT!
XOXO
redsummer`still tired.. argh! i hate saturdays... its never the same

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redsummer

Emotionally Tired..

can i not have feelings..
tired of feeling sad or happy or getting angry or fustrated or excited..
anything associated with any type of feelings..
i just dun want it..im so so tired of it...
can i have NO EMOTIONS for one day..just for one day, today..
okok.. until end of this yr... please...
can u take my feelings away...
take take take...
take it away!

argh..

anyway..

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK ANI!!
Enjoy ur bday today..♥
Love ya...

redsummer~just emotionally and mentally tired of you...

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Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Spare me THE CONFUSION by Wan (CraZe)

Love.

A word which is said so often,
By so many, but only meant by some.

Love.

As defined so confusingly.
To mean; a feeling of warm personal attachment, or,
Sexual passion and desire.

Love.

Spare me the confusion.
And call me not, your love.

To say,
I Love You,
Has lost its meaning.

Its purpose replaced,
Into use after "Good Nights" and "Good Byes"

I Love You.
Used after a long deep passionate kiss
To trick naive dates into
Sex.

Love IS everywhere.

Just dont confuse it with the big... FUCK YOU.
........................................................................................................................

-The End-

I just couldn't agree more to this poetry of his...
now adays ppl take saying the word "love" so lightly...
its hard to believe who really means it and who has an alternative meaning to saying it..
that y i now i live by the saying "it takes more than words to make me fall for you"
Dont waste your words on me because i will never trust you.. show me rather than tell me to make me believe you.. because words are only words... in the dictionary the word can mean one thing and when you say it, it can mean another.. and no way can I find what you really mean in the dictionary..

Anyway CraZe lastest craze is Drums... He just got his new Drums..
Sweet.... haha..
CraZe will alwys be craze...
Oh yah.. we Web cam a few days a go.. when my Cuzzie Was all here so he practically get to meet each and everyone of my family members..haha...
"A new Way of Meeting the Family"
but we didnt get to see his... he's so cute la on web cam... than most of us are gals..
so he was like Smiling all the way..haha,

you know YOU COULDN'T AGREE MORE
XOXO to the poet..haha
Redsummer` i just cant help it.. my heart sank when you said that... i wish it was different.. i wish i didnt know you.. if only i could turn back time and cancel it.. argh...

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redsummer

Monday, July 14, 2008

My interpretation of this song...
Shadows and Regrets by Yellowcard
( the ones in brackets and in red are my own words)

I'm Back, Back In Town
(Chua Chu Kang & Bukit Batok..hehe)
And Everything Has Changed
I Feel, Feel Let Down
The Faces Stay The Same
(The Faces of my Primary sch & Secondary sch "Frens")
I See, See Shadows
Of Who We Used To Be
(see memories of the past)
When I Drive, Drive So Slow
Through This Memory
(when i walk by the place, i take my time, walking through the memory lane..remembering the good times we use to have)

When We Were Only Kids
(we're still young at heart but have grown so much)
And We Were Best Of Friends
And We Hoped For The Best
And Let Go Of The Rest

I Heard, Heard Myself
Say Things I Take Back
(say/do things that i didnt mean..too late to take it back)
If I Could, Could Retell
And Make These Stories Last
(If i could i wouldnt want to lose anyone of them)
I See, See Shadows
Of Who You'll Always Be
(Now i can only see the memories)
When I Drive, Drive These Roads
That Made Of Memories
When We Were Only Kids
And We Were Best Of Friends
And We Hoped For The Best
And Let Go of The Rest
Shadows And Regrets
We Let Go of The Rest

Everything Has Changed
(yes everything has change, change so much so that i feel diffrent ard ppl i use to know)
Faces Stay The Same
(yet their face stay the same..but who they're once were has change)
Everything Has Changed
Faces Stay The Same
And We Were Only Kids
And Our Time Couldn't End
(we use to thought that we will be frens forever...well guess again)
And How Tall Did We Stand
With The World In My Hands
(we used to be so carefree with no worries in our hand, when were young its so easy to make frens)

And We Were Only Kids
And We Were Best Of Friends
And We Hoped For The Best
And Let Go Of The Rest
Shadows And Regrets
We Let Go Of The Rest
Shadows And Regrets
We Let Go Of The Rest

-The End-

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redsummer

what abt saturday

what happen on that night keep replaying in my head...
but now its over... it didnt mean anything..
i guess i was the pushy one....
i should have listen to my guts and cancel everything even though i promise to treat him...
yea yea.. i get to see the fireworks... the best view only that we need to go a lil climbing of straits... thats where i went wrong.. we should have just when window shopping than maybe no one will get hurt... anyway its been awhile going to town... just two ppl...both of the opposite sex...haha, kental i know.. when he 1st reach my pam were sweaty.. im not to sure y..maybe i was nervous...OH NO..his not someone from the chatline, NO!... someone i know way back... and i meet him once aftr a long time and now again...argh! im so mad at myself..

i hate this feeling.. through out the day all i can think of is yesterday.. if only i could turn back and change things.. do it differently... say things differently.. maybe it wont be like this.. i even thought of msging him... just cant find the words to say... so its better off not saying a word...
i tend to hurt ppl by my words often...
i guess this is my retrebution...
i accept it i guess..
i keep losing ppl that mean something to me because of my naiveness..wtf..

you know that day was something i need to forget..which i cant but i have to...
xoxo
redsummer`in deep shit... smile for me... cause im emotionless right now..am i not good enough?

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redsummer

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Half of my Saturday is gone...

I spent a few hours in the morning reading someone blog..i google it and found it..
some heartfelt and normal everyday rants were written...just keeps me wanting to read more, talking to you may be better to get to know you..but How many question can i think of? will i ever ask/say the right thing to you? im known for getting my tongue tied and saying the wrong things all the time..
i never thought a guy who has his dreams turn into reality will be going through this much life.. now i get why your having sleepless nights and lonely drive ard singapore.. i guess in life you can never run away from problems..hmpz...for you have acheive so much beyong your wildest dreams because of your hard work, passion and dedication.. yet there is still something that is missing in your life... i guess in life we gain some and we lose some...

For me, i'm yet to have any of my dreams turn into reality.. i dont even know where to start... im just going where the stream is flowing.. the course im taking is just a practical choice... anywhere and everywhere they need logistician.. so i will never run out of a job... is this really what i want to do when i get out of school... Yes, im still young.. the attachment is fun and all.. when the real work starts, will i be able to manage.. yeah i gain experience during these few months of attachment.. but they really treat us like attachment students instead of another worker... atleast i get to observe how stressful work can be and never really experience it..
its not that i never do any work its just that i dun do the real thing... all i do is filling and keying in of freight details, packing and counting of life jackets.. actually i learn alot when i was in oversea packing.. i get to use to the WMS to create DN, key in Purchase order and print it out using this old annoying printer and picking up calls.. the part i love most is to pick up calls even when sometimes i dun knw how to answer them.. at Local DC all i do is filling, singing and disturb ppl..yeah get to use the WMS but just sometimes.. Being in this company ive change.. i tink..change in a 50/50 way.. and i never expect it.. im the kind who never talks to someone until that person talk to me 1st.. but when i came to the company i became more thick skin... and Ain just remind me that i said "kat sini takya Malu2 klu Malu tak dpt ape kau nak" means here you have to be thick skin to get what you want... because im that way now.. i even make frens with people who is not im my department.. and going back time im the loudest there..i just cant seem to stand still while lining up to clock out.. some may get annoyed and some will laugh or smile at me.. but who cares as long i am happy..haha... 3 more wks to go.... till the end of the attachment... i think im really going to MISS the people there.. every Weekday i look forward to go to work because of you ppl.. especially to Mr Ehem2 who nvr fail to make my day.. im gona miss him alot... there will be a hole in my heart once im back in sch... it will never be the same...

i was to caught up that i lose track of what i am writing about..
but nvm.. well my real dream is to be a Hairstylist and a Photograher...
my hair sucks now.. so dun look at me like that..
you have the look that say "you hairstylist? when your hair looks like its never been styled"
its been awhile since ive been to the salon...this is the longest hair length that i had and still growing..i use to cut it short n differnt2 hairstyles.. but before i cut i alwys have a style in mind..which i tot of in days and days.. but now im running out of ideas of what to do to my hair..
i have an idea but i dun know how to explain it... i wish i could show it but i dun have a doll to do it.. i use to draw the hairstyle that i want.. once i draw and show the hairdresser.. sometimes it was just hand gusture or picture from a magazine.. but it never really come out the way i want it to be.. but as long as its different from the old hair cut than thats good enough.. and mind you i dun go to expensive salon ok.. okok, only for my Mohawk and my Vetoria Bechams inspired hairstyle i went to the salon.. and some other hairstyle was at my stepmom fren salon which my stepmom paid for.. the cheapest hair style n the one n only time i cut it there was at lakeside and it only cost 8 bucks..haha so not worth it..

anyway back to the 1st paragraph...
the only dream or Fantasies that came true was getting to know you..
i only watch the show to see you and fantasies of course...haha..
i guess like you said..life is fated and everything happens for a reason...

you know THE TITLE DOSEN'T GO WITH POST
XOXO
redsummer`you can never tell wats life going to bring to you.. you can sit and wait but life is too short for that... so stop wondering and start doing what you've been wanting to do...its easier said than done.. .

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

CraZe's Craze...

Topic of the week..
haha...Wan's CraZe...
(actually im just bored and have nothing to blog abt..so i thought y not blog abt this)

Once in awhile he get this Obsession...
the 1st Obession was Windows Live Space..
He was so into it for a few days atleast..
then i didnt know he easily get obsessive with new found stuff...
it easily ware off when he gets bored..
thats what i notice..

the 2nd and 3rd one that i remembered was...
XBOX 360 and new Laptop...
Super excited... and i tot him how to video call that day...
so using his lappie web cam... i can see his face right...
that day was when i saw his Cute Obsession face...
eager to try out new software and stuff...
that when i conqure that..
he will have that face when ever he has a new CraZe..haha
He even play his Xbox until he didnt even come online...
play game only...but that craze is still on...still crazy abt xbox

after that...
he was Crazy abt Blogger...
he just sign up for it..but but, guess what he already has Myspace and Multiply..
he blogs there too...
he even ask me to put song in his blog..when he knows which website to go to...
the next day when i check.. he has a playlist and even a video in his blog...
and i guess his bored of it...
cuz he hadnt been updating his blog..there like less than 5 post in there...

the Newest and Most Current Craze..
i was surprise when i saw him online the other day...
he was MIA for quite sometime now...
and ive guessted that he must have some new craze..i wasnt too sure at 1st...
he confrim it when he say he was in love.. haha
to non other than Lucy in the LOo..and sudden wanting to listen to local bands again...which is a good thing as we have to Support our local Bands..
and im glad that Rancour won the anugerah band..they hav been at it since i was in secondary sch i tink...they deserve the break...
haha...Funny guy la he...

its actually normal to have Crazes here and there...
only that i notice his craze more..get what i mean..
aiya dont knw how to explain...
i even gave him a nick..
which is "CraZe" like duh! who wouldnt have guess that right..haha

i actually thought of..putting an extra box at the side..
just for his craze...
it may be good as i can put in his Opinion on that craze of his..
and you may try out the stuff yourself..
catch any balls?

you know YOUR GOING TO HAVE A NEW CRAZE SOONER OR LATER..
XOXO
Redsummer`weekend is coming..hope i have a good one...to all you readers too...i cant wait to meet u yet i dun wana hurt myself...*store in head we are just frens!* hope it sticks...

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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

To be Or not to be that is the question...

Should i just cancel it...
but i did promise...
the reason i want to cancel is because..
i don't want to hurt myself...
although that person is clueless abt it..
i myself know how i feel...
lik someone said to me before...
this small witty gal..haha
every guy that wana go out with us..
eventhough to him its nothing...but to gals in our heads is alwys..
"there is a chance" but when you really think abt it..
to that guy its just frens going out...
Gals like me especially..
the dreamer... like to give ourself hope to every little nice thing the guy said or do...
how strong i try to be.. and to just not give myself hope..
but i find it hard too..
every little gesture..every little touch...
will be accounted for...
I can keep thinking "I wont fall for him"
in the end my heart will still say that "there is still hope"
when really there isn't..
A guy fren told me to follow my guts..
and i replied "my head tell me that it would never happen"
"and my hearts says yes it will, there is hope"
"but my guts seem to be confuse and not tell me anything"
so what do i do now?
get it over and done with, then just hide and never return..
after that day just delete his number, msn, blog or watever that has him in it...
or just disapper from his life now..so i wont even get a chance to hurt myself even abit..
or just go ahead with all the plans that i had with him.. and see how it goes...
i'm just confuse of which to do...
which is better...
i seriously am tired of hurting myself..
lonely nights..
tears of sorrow on my pillow..
i hate that...
what if i make the wrong choice...
what will happen then?
life has to many question marks..
way way too many paths to take..
will never know where we will end at...
so where do i go from here?
can you show me a clear path...
a path of no pain..
i know there will be ups and downs...
but i dun wana go up and down that road alone...

Redsummer`i ruin it all when i say something stupid to you..thats why ur not treating me as before...still you wana be frens with me....but do i just wana ..argh! k i will stop here

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Monday, July 7, 2008

Most Days i just feel like...
THROWING away my phone...

i don't find the point of me having a phone..
i pity the phone at times...
it wants to play its ringtones too you know..
but no one in my contact list is giving it a chance too..
it can go on.. days and days without ringing..
and i dont get it why i keep checking my phone..
when there nothing there..
just my wallpaper..
nothing that say 1 new message or 1 missed call...
still i keep checking any moment that i can..
sometimes i feel stupid doing it...
the phone only rings once in a blue moon..
and we hardly get a blue moon right..
yet the bill keep coming every month..
and guess what it even exceed the monthly payment...
haha, i should know why..
random calling or msges to whoever is in my contact...
up to them if they want to reply anot..
if they dont and im not that close to them..
easy..
i'll just delete the number..haha..
im that crazy..paranoid and watever is associated with crazyness...
i just find no point of keeping someones number but its just "rotting away" in my phone book..
dont you agree?

redsummer`love her new red phone..maybe it will just be her new mp3 other than a walkman phone...haha..

To: MOM
have a safe trip to JB.. I ♥ YOU..
Take care..

Labels: most days i feel like

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Sunday, July 6, 2008

Sunday Blues...

i hardly have monday blues nowadays...but i alwys have sunday blues...
the thought of not spending my weekends well just kills me..
nonsense i know... im just that kind of person...
i woke up at lik 9 am i tink..i just cant seem to sleep in..
because if i were to sleep in i will miss half of the day..
now thinking about it i rather have sleep in..and wake up during the late afternon..
well someone did suggested that i sleep since i got nothing to do, which i do but i just dont know hw to start doing my project, anyway i told that person that i find sleep boring...
which i honestly think so..it boring because when u sleep you might miss the best the best things in life..so im still wide awake untill now.. spent my morning watching an anime love story titled "5 centimeters per second"
which i find it a bit boring but the an anime is great only the story line is boring yet touching and confusing i tink..haha, if u get that then welcome to the club...haha..after i did some blog hopping and watch Legally Blonde 2 at the same time.. then i just listen to music and watch videos...lots of videos...

Wan was online just now...guess wat..as usual he's having his new obessesion now..His New Craze is "lucy in the loo"... its a malaysian band..
his all cute and funny when he has a new Obessesion..
you should have seen his face when he just got a new laptop and xbox 360...
Supper Cute la..haha.. he is alwys randomly going through this kinda phase..haha...

just now he was like saying "help me..im in lovee"
i was like "what.. to who?"
he replied "to this band Lucy in the loo"

and i thought he was in love with a gal..
well actually he is..to the lead vocalist/guitarist/song writer of the band.. because its a gal..
i must agree her VOICE is REALLY3 NICE...if he hadn't told me it was a malaysian band.. i wouldnt have known...cool eh..her voice and the Rhythem of the song dun have any traces of malaysianess in it...one day when im not lazy i will put their song in my blog k..your ur ears to hear and for you to give your own opinion on the song...

talking abt songs..
I Miss having an Mp3 that i could listen to.. My Creative Zen Stone is going crazy..
the 1st time it when crazy all the song were gone...and i had to restore all the songs again..
now i cant even switch it on...i even press the small little reset button, it didnt do me any justice too..ARGH!! i need an Mp3...just a cheap one that can only play music and store a lot of songs will do.. Can i have yours? please? Can i ? Can i?
hate going to work without my Mp3...because the bus ride to work is filled with ppl listening LOUDLY to TRANCE OR TECHNO Or whatever you call it..and its giving me a freaking headace and pain in the ears so early in the morning!!! what a way to start a day..please pity me.. thanks:)

you know YOU WANA GIVE ME YOUR MP3:)
XOXO to anyone who is gona give me an MP3..haha
Redsummer`how do i live without you,Mp3? why you do this to me..it hurts me when i cant listen to my songs when im out..

Labels: sunday blues

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My Saturday Turn Out to be a..
♥ FATHER and DAUGHTERS Day! ♥

had Dinner at Ramen Ten
My dad, Kak Sya and Kak Ani..

Kak Sya And Kak Ani..

Just me..

@ Daiso
Dad Posing with the Hat..
Cool..

Finally!
Waffle and ICe CREAM..
Been wanting to eat it since the last meet up with dad...

Indulging in the all so YUMMY ice cream..

Sibok je my dad..haha

My dad didnt want to let go of that cow...
and that cow got cross eye with him..aiyoo..

I was Super Duper Hungry Seh..because of that SOMEONE...
but never mind..lain kali uat lagi k?hehe..All is forgiven cuz i get to EAT my WAFFLE ICE CREAM AND HAVE MY FRIED EBI.. 2 of my Fav Food..Especially FRIED EBI...
And also get to go out with my Dad and Sisters...
I saw Kering just now...while going down the escalator..he saw me too..actually he shouted my name that y.. i just said Hey! den i called his phone..haha
we walk ard vivo...i wanted to shop for casual dresses...but ended up bring home stuff for the hammies..found this cute ceramic place for the hammie to sleep in at Diaso..then when to the petshop...the hammies there are all so CUTE and ADORABLE seh..Wish i could touch them...there is a few breeds that i have not seen before but yet they are so adorable...
the last place was Marina Kepple bay..nice place to chill out at..haha..oh yah..the doctor said its just a muscle strain..

Dad Keep Saying
"Ice Cream, You Scream, Everyone Scream!"
haha..ape jek..

♥THANKS KAK SYA♥
for bringing me to the POLYCLINIC..
and paying for my the tax fare and the Medicine..

♥ THANKS DAD ♥
for the dinner at RAMEN TEN,
for paying for the hammies stuff and also for bring us out..

♥ THANKS KAK ANI ♥
for the ICE CREAM treat at BEN & JERRY'S...

Overall i had a good day...
my stamoch filled and im HAPPY :)
are you happy?
as the saying goes a hungry person is an angry one..
i just felt like bitting u to bits...but that was then..

you know I LOVE ALL OF YOU
XOXO to MOM,DAD,Sisters...and not to that someone...hehe
Redsummer`antara nak dgn taknak je..all up to u...i ok go jek..cuz i know what i want..but do you?

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