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Redsummer

when i looked up to the sky, do u see what i see?

REDSUMMER

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young but not hopeless
still in school:/
I'm Single so lets Mingle
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-let me cut ur hair if u dare
photography
-wana go take pictures together?y not
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-free gigs?u know where?hEY! HO! lets go..
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-fav NANA & currently watching BLEACH

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Friday, February 29, 2008

We are the only ones we are running from..
(inspired by Saosin-never wanted to lyrics)

ever felt like running away from reality...
sometimes i rather just stay in my imaginary world rather than face reality..
bcuz reality sometimes juz bite u hard in the ass..
and i hate that..
the reality is..
people are judgemental..everyone is..
even i am..
i am sad when people judge me for my outer apperance..
but when i think back i too judge people..
so im a hypocrite in that manner...

speaking of hypocrite...
some of my friends often misuse this word..
they associate hypocrite as being two face...
everyone knows what two face it rite?
if you dun..
for example..
A tell her frens that she hates this guy and bad mouth abt this guy to her frens..but when she is with the guy she bad mouth to him abt her frens... so that a two face..she alwys show ppl her gd side..so ppl would think she or he is a gd person..
anyway that is the meaning of two face..
so from wat i read in the dictionary and somehow to my confuse understanding..
hypocrite means that a person said something to someone but he or she dosent practice it too..
lik my example on top i hate it wen ppl judge me but i too judge people..
so im being a hypocrite...
everyone is a hypocrite at one point or another so we cant say that we hate hypocrites...
bcuz somehw we are one of them too at some point..
unless the person is a hardcore hypocrite everything he or she say is something that he or she nvr practices den that we can hate..haha...

anyway back to the topic of running frm oneself...
sometimes running away may seem to be only solution..
but it dosent reali solve it...
especially when u hav a big problem and if u run away from it..
it will still be there..
when u head back to reality the problem will hit u hard on the head...
but being ur own made up world seems to be better..
every felt lik not even coming back..
just staying in the delusional world...
being happy n carefree..
all u ever wanted or needed in life will be there...
feels great dosent it..hmm...

there is another way of running away frm oneself..
it when u read other ppls blog..
especially abt ppl who have much much more interesting life then u do..
u tend to imagine that u were them while reading ur blog..
hav u ever thought of that before...
u'll never get that sort of imagination in my blog..\
bcuz my life is quite boring..nothing interesting..
but some other ppls blog juz reali let u in in to their ''interesting lifes''
WOW!haha..

okok..enought said..

you know u dun reali read my entires
bcuz why?
its boring..i know..
tell u a sceret i find it boring to but i like writing or let say typing..
that is y i hav a blog..
XOXO
redsummer sight*

Labels: we are the only ones we are running from

For Besti♥ CuzZie..

Happy Belated Bday Present...

i told u im gona give u a cheapo gift..tot of getting u sumthing..

but u wanted something sweet that i made..

but ur not gona get it anytime soon..

exams are coming up..aftr exams i'll make for u..

its gona be something lik a the pic below...

a college of our pics...n im gona design it of course its not gona be this plain..

so u could post it or hang it in ur ROOM..

its reali gona be a cheapo cute n sweet gift for u sori that it will take time..

you know u want it..
your cheapo present of course..
lot of XOXO to u CuZzie
redsummer :P

Labels: for besti cuzzie

Monday, February 25, 2008

San Disk Cruzer
get one...its good..it has a free software inside..
its has games n some other things which i dun knw wat it is..
but the most improtant thing that i lik is that its has a Hp Photosmart U3 init..
easy to use...i can edit my pics, the normal stuff, i can easily collage my own pictures...the way i wan it..but the dissapointing thing is i can't edit text in it..

well...if any of u hav anyother better online picture editor to recomment plz tag me,
will appreciate it that you share..hehe....

you Know u gotta have it
XOXO
Redsummer :P

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Captured moments that i'll keep forever..
pictured memory of the past..

miss those days...

sweet memories of my past..

miss hanging out with my old friends..

you know you MISS me..
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: captured moments that i'll keep forever

its just a want, but do i really need it?

I want someone to call my own..
someone that is special..
someone who wont replace me for another..
someone who will give me all the tender loving care that i need..
i've been ''sobber'' for 3 yrs n counting..
when will my heart be whole again..
will someone fill that empty space for me..
but do i really need you..
i know i hav my family n my lovely friends for all the love that i need..
but what's LOVE anyway?
can you tell me?
does love judge? is love honest?
watever it is..
i just wan a special someone to be with me..
jealousy and envy have taken a toll on me..
y do pretty, beautiful people get to experince all the wonder full things in life..
y not me?
they keep saying that your pretty n that the inside wat counts..
but they are not me..they wont understand..
they never do..
they juz pretend to understand..
they tell you white lies just to booze yourself confidence..
haiz..
do you really hav to be pretty for someone to fall head over heels for you?
argh...
wat the hell..

baby
when will you be mine?

Love me for me..
dont let my looks push u away frm me..
but if i am that groutest to you..
then i deserve better..
go on now..
let those faces betray you..
if thats wat u wan..
deceiving looks blinded by wat u guys call ''love''
to me its just lust for her beauty..

but den again..
whatever
who cares abt wat i think anyway...

a bitter trail..
left behind by the cold hearted someone..
thats someone is me..
but im not cold hearted la..
juz a bit angry, lonely..
all mixed up...

-redsummer

Labels: a want or do i reali need it

Only HAPPY FACES Found...
chuckles..hee...

Hang OUT with My 5 ♥Gfs @ Surayya's Crib...
only Fiza MIA..as alwys...haha...

LIz, Fa, Sue, Afa(Me!), Idah & Ain...

haha..
Us Squeezing onto S's Bed..

Dancing to Fever( the beeGees)

All together Now!!

Few More Pics before going off..
Tired n OILY faces...haha

Liz and Me..
In NEL..Long way home..

Lastly..
picture of me..
Cute KApe budak Gemok ni..
haha..actuali tak cute la tapi cam cool gitu..
baju ROCK SISTERS beb..haha...

today was great...
thanks to Sue's idea...
she invited us to her humble home to chill...
all i could think of is food..haha..
we watch Bring it on 3..
had dinner...her mom cooked 'Mee Birthday'- that wat sue called it...
for more infromation on mee birthday juz click on to Surayya...haha
moving on...
then we had a so called ''confessions'' in S room..
ended talking abt Alvin n the chipmunks...
den wen down for a breather..and to get Bubble tea..
but the shop was close so we had ice cream instead...
the BEST part..
We had a Kareok session back at Su's place..
started with Malays song...
i dun reali knw that much mly song..
well..AIN, FA n Su can really sing...
especially Ain...she has been training for a few yrs now at hm..haha..
ended with the Bee GEes...
I sang.. haha..
den we started dancing to Fever and Words..
Word are all i Have to take ur heart away...haha..
i was hopping today nvr end..
reali had fun with all 5 of them..
we take stupid vids again..haha...

ALL GOOD THINGS WILL COME TO AN END..
but let the good times keep on coming..

more updates...
chatted wif Mr Andrew...
for once...he actuali had a fast reply...
if not he will forever be tired..
it was fun as i get to learn new things n new words frm him..
chat wif ya soon..
looking forward to it..hehe...

that all for now..

you know u gotta HAVE me...
will you make my DAY?
XOXO
redsummer *freaking HAPPY :)

Labels: Only happy faces found

Saturday, February 23, 2008

you can call it normal or typical or wat ever u wan to..

Kak Sya Bought me a new dress..at TOSS, Heeren
the dress is pretty...
but when i wear it, it dosent suit me that well..
bcuz i lik dresses that are casual and can go with my converse shoe or my flip flops...
but this dress when i wear its if feel lik i need to wear atleast some heels with it..so not me la seh..haha..but THANKZ kak sya..

This picture taken on Thursday, 21 Febuary 2008
while waiting for Fiza to finish her personality test..
Ain, Idah n Me wore the same colour polo t that day..

while waiting for the lift..
Fiza, Liz, Fa, Sue wore Blue that day...

today had the second test for the week which is WIM practical..
freak!!!!!!!!!! the teacher really make me kan chong...
i was so stress out that i went blank.. i had to look at the others of wat to do next..
bcuz the teacher was so irritating keep saying faster2..haiz..
well, IM GLAD THATS freaking over!!
i can finally breath n relax again...

anyway..chatting with my BRO, HISHAM in msn...
he said something sweet...u all might not get it bt its between me and him

he says: ko ni eh ....
btw jgn lah ckp cm 2 .....
u ah ......
im sure sum dae therz sum1 hu cn take gd care of u ......
smile okhai ...

she says: thnks bro
didnt knw u care bt me seh
sweet pe kau
haha
kau je la jadi bf aku
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

he says: hahak
siak ah ko ni ...

she says: haha
tapi really la
sweet la
thnks for caring..

he says: itz okhai ... wat frenz r 4 rite ....

i was touched bcuz nowadays we rarely contact each other...
his in NS n im schling..and he has a gf..so i dun bother him that much...we dun even mit..the last time i meet was early last yr i tink...that was it..
he can hav harsh sarcastic comments at time...but atleast his being honest..n i can say watever i wan to him to..thats y its fun to hav him as a fren...

thats all..

you know u gotta hav me
XOXO
redsummer *smiles* :)

Labels: typical blogging

Thursday, February 21, 2008

EARLY SUPPPER?! haha..
with my ♥ FAMILY ♥
excluding my dad of course..

Ate @ Swensens, West Mall

Kak Ani (2nd sister) treat us...
my family ratherly had outings together..
this is juz one of those times that we are seen together..
at 1st i didnt wana go bcuz i juz reach hm...
and i was tired.. and i had to study for mp test 2moro..
when i heard everyone was going.. den i decided to go..
n i can study 2moro...and not go for early lesson..juz go for the test that starts at 3 pm..
so i still hav time to jammed my brain in the morning...
well,someone told me before its better to study in the morning while ur mind is clear..that's y im blogging right now...
haha...
and yah...kak ani bought a new camera..sony T70 issit? the touch screen one la..
and my mom bought a new mp3...and my mom n i bought new ear pieces... and i also bought new cool! TUMBDRIVE bcuz someone took my old one(kinda my fault cuz i forget to bring back..long story la) and i also bought for my mp3 a skin protector..wanted a red one but they dun hav it at harvey norman...
GUESS WAT!!
Arif..this guy i use to knw n so long nvr see him kinda miss him..
he was standing beside my mom at the escalator..but he didnt say hi..he was alone..
we hav a bittersweet past together so i guess its better that way?! haiz..i dun knw..

Anyway...
earlier today...
when to idah's place...to study..
idah has 3 cats..meow...hehe..Momok(one of the cats) is so cute and like to dig in ur beg..haha..
finally idah and fateha teach me Mp calculation..
which i finally finally understand..thankz gals..muack..
and the other day the teacher thought i knw hw to do but actuali im clueless..haha
aku step paham je...when the teacher is teaching im looking at her lik i understand but my mind is actuali somewhere else..haha..
i easily day dream when my bored..haha...

thats all..
better be getting off to bed soon...
Have a freaking test 2moro.. all the best everyone..
pls if can dun copy..hate la..
if copy study for wat..
if u nvr study n nvr copy at least u knw where u are..
thats juz my opinion la..
but up to u..hmmm

i know u dun wan me...haha..
OXOX
summer red..

Labels: Early supper..

Monday, February 18, 2008

CAM WHORE

featuring..

Mr Fauzi, Surayya and Syafa

Went to Vivo city..

was late again..1 hr late...opps..sorry..

i dun knw y everytime wen going out i alwys be late..

going to sch i'll be late too but just a few mins..

i kinda lost track of time actually..to indulged in SMOSH!!

and was chating wif a new fren in msn..he not frm spore..

he keep asking me wat is spore lik n stuff..i dun reali knw hw to answer him..haha

maybe you could help me??tell me the interesting things that spore hav..

but i told him that i'll post some pics of spore for his viewing pleasure...haha

but not today.. of course..will do it soon...hehe..

that all for today had carrot cake again...and walk ard in vivo..n took lots of pics..

thats all its late i hav to go to bed.. 2moro sch liao...haha

you know u wan me

XOXO

redsummer

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to friendster's management

Sunday, February 17, 2008

To FRIENDSTER!!
a message to you friendster..
a message to you friendster..
FREAK YOU FRIENDSTER!!

your not facebook so juz deal with it and move on just be lik the normal friendster again!!!
no need to hav stupid application!! cuz its reali slows dwn the connection there is too much to load!!! i'm sure everyone wld agree frenster wld be much better without application...
I can hardly view any one or reply a msg or comment anyone anymore...the internet would give me msg that states Internet Explorer cannot display the webpage.. I HATE THAT! I WANT THE OLD FRIENDSTER BACK!!
Facebook is gd but dosent mean friendster hav to follow them...
and eventhough facebook has loads of application it dosen't lagg!!!!
and i wan my frens in frenster back..
some guy send me a smile in frenster n said he wana get to knw me up close..
and i freaking cant reply him!!! I HATE FRIENDSTER FOR NOT BEING IT SELF N TRYING TO BE LIK FACEBOOK!!
but i still wana use frenster bcuz most singaporeans use FRIENDSTER!!
ARGH!!
Sometimes i CANT even LOG IN!! and when i get to log in all i can do is view my home..CANT EVEN VIEW MY FRENS OR MY FREAKING OWN PROFILE!! pls do sumthing abt tis n lose the application LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im sorry for the rudeness my sincere apology..
but i really want to use friendster badly.. :(sob sob

plz do something abt this fast..

yours sincerely
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: to friendster management and human resources

smosh

MY NEW CRAZE!!!
SMOSH..
THE CRAZY CUTE DUO

Anthony and Ian..Aww..
been watching their videos since yesterday nite after i stumble upon them in cuzzies blog..
can't get enough of them...while im posting tis im still dwnloading one of their vids..haha..
i wana get their tshirts..if im not wrong they use their own tshirts as in they print their own graphics on the tshirt...i saw some nice ones...haha..gona check smosh.com later to see if i can get the tshirts..there is even one vid showing funny ways to put stamp on a mail...

hehe..
XOXO
redsummer

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SMOSH VIDEOS
featuring Anthony and Ian(main characters in all the vids)..
first watch their vids in cuzzie syahir blog..so funny...
so i search them in youtube....
watch most of the vids..i laugh my ass off..haha...
didnt knw which vid to choose frm...
btw i lik anthony cuz his cute n handsome with short hair and ian is cute and adorable with his actions...haha..

enjoy...

Labels: Smosh.com

Saturday, February 16, 2008

HAVE I LOST THE EMO ANGRY SIDE OF ME??

the me that was once angry with the world..
the me that was lonely and need a companion...
somehow i think i lost that..
bcuz i hav angry toughts at times but easily forgetten abt it..
and i barely know wat angry or emo stuff to talk abt in my blog..
my mind juz go blank wen i sign in to my blogger...
i have no angry or emo views on anything...haha...
and guess wat today is a weekend and im at hm but i didnt reali complaint abt it like im used to..
haha..
wat a fast change...
when i tink abt it nothing in reali life hav change...
so y am i lik tis..
lik i hav no inspiration to write abt stuff that so called matters...
hmm..
kinda strange don't ya think...
well i find it strange..its just not me...

maybe its still in me just need to find it...
let me scearh for it..
Ummm...

ok found it..

DO YOU HAV ANY ELDER SIBILING??

they can be a pain in the ass at times don't they..
i hate it wen ur doing sumting n all they try to do is correct u wen u didnt even ask for their help...
and u hav that feeling that if u let them they just wan to do that thing u do.. to show u that they knw more n they do it better...
i feel lik as if my sisters especialy my elder sis dun wana let me learn on my own...
she keep interfering with wat im doing...
i hate that...she's lik so showing off...
i hav an example..
it juz happen jus now
i was cutting off a long pants to make it into smart short...
and i did one pants in to shorts juz yesterday wen no ones at home...
so today i decide to do the other pants
my sis was beside me...
i was drawing a line on the pants den she say wana make shorts issit..den i say yah!
den seh say u wana cut both side together issit den u hav too...
i cut her off and said i knw wat im doing i just did one yesterday...
den she say y u never used the cloth scissors..
i show her a piss off face bcuz i use that scissors yesterday n my lines wernt straight cuz the scissors were blunt i think so i use some other scissors...
wen i finish cutting...i fold the sides in..den she was lik no u cant do that u hav to put the pants inside out before u cld do that...den i'm lik reali piss off..
i said can u JUST LET ME DO MY OWN WAY...I KNOW U KNOW EVERYTHING..N I DID THIS YESTERDAY (and showed her the shorts that i did yesterday) SO CAN U JUZ LET ME USE WAT I KNW TO DO IT...
and guess wat she ROLLED her EYES on me and said ok and showed me an irritating face of hers...
i should be rolling my eyes on her not the other way round..ass..
she so gets on my nerve at times...
and u knw wat... she borrowed HOUSE MD dvd series from her friend..
and btw my sis is 25...my sis is wrking in medical library..where she meet a doc in training..i think thats where she get her knowledge that i dun think u need if ur not a docter on some medical stuff..so moving on..
she loves to watch HOUSE...and i started to like it to..so i watch with her often..
but the irritating part is...when we are watching...she keep talking abt the medical stuff that she know on the episode..n wont stop babbling abt it...n im lik SHUD UP already but i didnt say it out loud..haha..
but i so find it irritating...so at one point wen she can't stop showing off her knowledge..
i juz ask her a question on a medical term on the show ask her wat is that and she was lik...
erm.. im not to sure wat it is but i tink its bla bla bla but i dun reali know...
in my head im going WTF...you cant stop babbling lik u knw everything but wen someone ask u a question u cant answer them...if i were her i rather shud up n watch the show...y cant she juz be humble...n shut up at time...
so IRRITATING...or hav a blog or sumthing and tell the whole world wat u knw...at least its less irritating..bcuz the person has to read it to be irritated rite? haha...
i juz hate it wen someone older than u thinks they know everything juz bcuz to them they tasted salt 1st den u hav so u dun knw that much abt stuff as they do...freak this ppl...tis is the new generation..ppl get information from TV shows and internet and stuff...at any age..if they wana show off they can juz learn sumthing from the internet and show off to their frens..haizz...get over urself... everyone has their own way of thinking.. hav their own views on stuff n all that some of u OLDER ppl sometimes juz take our wrd as crap...and dun appreciate our view on stuff...

i not saying we know everything there is to know but we juz know wat we know...and not all ppl younger than you talk crap...some of us maybe but not all of us,if u juz listen to us we juz might make sence...

you knw u want me
XOXO
redsummer
im back!! feels great....

Labels: have i lost the angry emo side of me? and Do you have any elder sibilings?

Friday, February 15, 2008

JUST US ♥ GIRLS ON V-day!!

This is what i wore..
so slack...
polo-t and skirt n my red slippers...
i didnt knw wat to wear actuali..
supose to meet sue n ais at 5.30-6pm
luckily both of them havent go out of the hse..
in the end i finish getting ready at 6..haha..
and i wear so normal nothing special yet it took so long...
hate the skirt keep wanting to drop off...

I meet ais den meet S den meet F n her besti Eka and den ais meet aisyah..
all of us together now...

So called GOSSIP GIRL posse..
in paragon..vry the gossip girl place(high class?!)

S n A waiting for F to come..

had fun..
but avoiding v-day was hard..
majority of gals was wearing pretty dresses and was with thier date..
holding flowers especialy..and occasional teddy bear or ballon...
and most of them were caring the same bauquet of flowers..
the red pink n white roses wrap up in purple and pink wrappers...WTH..
is gona die sooner or later..freak..haha
suppose to get shoe or shorts...
shoe still to expensive the one i wan..
den shorts...no size...but reali cute...haiz..to bad...

that all for vday...not that sad la but not tat happy...yet had fun with the ''IT'' gals...haha

you know u wan me
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: Just us girls on vday

Thursday, February 14, 2008

GOSSIP GIRLS

if you dun leave in the states i dun knw u knw abt this...
but if u read..there is a series of book called gossip girls... i like reading the book..and its alwys bcuz of my 1st sis..anyway..one fine day i wen to gossip girls website and over at the states they make a show out of it n my sis bought online the cds so i cld watch it
MY NEW CRAZE
GOSSIP GIRL..
abt uptown gals..who are filty rich.. abt their glamourous n not so glamourous side of life..
i reali lik the show..mostly abt 2 best frens Serena n Blair..if u wana knw more den buy the book la...haha...must i tell u everything?? haha..
so go check out gossip girls...

famous quote frm gossip girl
" Who am i? thats a sceret i'll nvr tell..
you knw u love me
XOXO
gossip girl"

mine interpretation..
Who am i?
If untill now u still dun knw..i hav nothing to say to u but this
you knw u want me
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: gossip girls

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

SULK

meaning:
–verb (used without object)
1. to remain silent or hold oneself aloof in a sullen, ill-humored, or offended mood: Promise me that you won't sulk if I want to leave the party early.

–noun
2. a state or fit of sulking.
3. sulks, ill-humor shown by sulking: to be in the sulks.
4. Also, sulker. a person who sulks.

If you learn malay language...den im sure u knw wats merajok rite?!! well, in the past ppl try to find the word in english but nothing came up... den i remembered(juz now) i read tis in a book once n look up the word in the dictinery of course.. so i decide to look up the word again to confrim wat i tink it is..and so it is.. merajok in english is sulk..haha..finally i got the word in english if not its so hard to explain to the non-mly wat it means when u used the word on them..

cuz i keep sulking lately..
moody and stuff...dun knw y la..
dun knw y i get the valentine day tingy get to me..
stupid i knw... juz that other gals hav dates n stuff...
im mot other gals so i dun get that kinda previlages...haha..but i dun knw y i even bother...
y i get my self so caught up with it...
maybe bcuz it so hard to treat it lik any other day wen ever one is lik celebrating it n my sch hav tis small stall selling flowers n teddy bears for valentines day even in shopping mall they enforcing on it...
so how am i suppose to treat it lik any other day..
i can safely confrim to you..
2moro in sch the gals who get gifts is gona rub it in ur faces if ur single...
gals r so bitchy sometimes..haha..bbut its part of wat we call LIFE!!
haha..so juz hav to life with it but no one says u cant complaint abt it on ur blog rite?! haha

well..
Happy Valentines Day N Happy Friendship Day to all..
Freak signing off..

you knw u wan me..
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: sulk and all abt Valentine's day

HYPOCRITE

1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.

2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements.

Frankly,
i dun understand the meaning..everytime wen someone says another person is a hypocrite actually i dun reali knw wat it means..i hav to check the dictionery for the meanin time and time again..one minute i get it den i dun...

the 1st time i look the word up i read the sentence again n again...to understand it..
and the meaning is a some who wana change something in other ppl but they themselevs are lik that...but when u think back isnt everyone a hyprocite...there is alwys a time wen u urself is a hypocrite..but u didnt realised it..
i hate ppl who say they hate hypocrites... juz stupid la..do they reali knw the meaning?
is there a difference being two face and being a hypocrite??? if u have suggestions den tell me so..i would really lik to knw...juz give me a comment on my tag board..thnks

redsummer

Labels: hypocrite

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

SWEETS FOR MY SWEET DAY

with my gals...

had lunch at cafe 1 in sch den off to noods fo dessert...

chocolate fondant with ice cream

only $2.50

even though its small but its worth it..

YUM!

especially wen the hot dark chocolate ozzed out..

Off to tampines with the gals to hav dessert..

cant make up our minds whether to hav ice cream or cold dessert..

We choose COLD DESSERT..

Burr...

i had this

Colourful ice kacang..

which is actuali

ice with chocolate hersey syrup and colourful springkers..

with the normal kacang, corn, red bean and grass jelly at the bottom..

only $2

Sunburn from the swim at jurong..haha

i keep irritating F n S with my gossip gurl quote..haha

i love u guys...

you knw u wan me

XOXO

redsummer

Labels: Sweets for my Sweet day

Monday, February 11, 2008

THE REAL WORLD

the real world is crazy..
i just remembered that...
and the world is what it is nothing can reali change that.. only we ourself can change...
that wat we are capable of...that is sort of wat i learn on Tyra Banks Show today on channel 5..
it reali knock some sence to me...
that me blogging abt hw freak the world is wont change anything the freak stuff will still be there..
the hypocrites, backstabbers, poverty, watever it is..it gona be there...
no matter how one try to change it..
the whole world can be good..everyone cant do good all the time cuz were humans...rite?
its everyone was goody two shoes than there wont be balance in the world as it should be..
and the world would be boring actuali if u tink of it..
being happy alwys, alwys being safe.. no fights and stuff..
a history of happiness will that be lame...haha
humans as i wld say need a little drama in their lives once in a while rite?
if not it could lead to being a CLOWN or on Batman a JOKER who is alwys happy but a little phycsotic i might say.. haha..
watever it is we juz need to move on n forget the freaking past and not dwell on it to much..
even though wen im lonely i tend to do that alot thats y i lik to blog den juz shit n think of the bittersweet past of might den make me kinda emo sumtimes...

and by the way looks can be deceiving...
lies too..so dun judge ppl by the outer or juz the sweet wrd that comes out of their lipz..

you know u wan me
XOXO
redsummer

Labels: real world

Saturday, February 9, 2008

why do pretty, beautiful, thin, slim, gals get all the best things from a guy?

do they reali deserve it becuz of their image becuz of their outer apperance?

even though if they treat some guys badly or dey juz treat them as spare parts ?

i dun understand y the guys cloud still accept that?
they can accept hw pretty gals reali are even wen they r treat that way..

wat do u get in return ? do u reali get happines..

and most guys would do anything.. i mean anything for these gals attention..

by putting some of their money in the gals bank so that they could shop..

wen the gals wan them to pick them up they wld dun care whr the gal is even wen its far..

is all that effort worth it even wen u knw the gal dun wan you?

i seriously dun get it..

guys can be so sweet wen it come to pretty gals..

give them flowers..presents..surprises...watever that is sweet that make ur heart content..

ok maybe im juz jealouse..

but its kinda not fair la...

come on la...

they juz making themsleve look stupid if their trying to hard n that gal has already made up their mind...

but surely pretty gals dun alwys get wat they wan..but mostly dey do i must say and they also get things that they dun wan but other gals lik me r dying for...wat the hell

i may sound desperate..but im juz stating out facts that i know of...
but still i hav to say there are a small no. of guys who has already wake up n face reality n treat gals lik me good..well congrats to them..

maybe some guys dun get it y some pretty gals hav fat not so gd looking boyfrens..
bcuz gals reali go for the heart not the outer...they easily love guys who can touched their hearts n not just by using money....
but still there are gals who r still bitchy who wans onli handsome guys wif money n all..if you get lik that kinda gal n complain den u hav ur self to blame u juz go for the wrong kind...u juz wana the outer but that person wif beautiful features just wan ur money n transport...
stop it la look at the person wholely not the outer only bodo...

da tau gitu lagi ada hati nak ckp y gals onli for for guys who has money n car or bike..
u onli hav urself to blame belo...not all gals the same..same for the guys some vry little are diff...
i know im going ard the bush..but i juz cant help it la..this ppl not reali tat open
they ask r u open minded...they say they are but their not ...open minded isnt all abt sex n stuff la bodo!!
open minded is being open to things...lik let say getting to know all type of gals.irritating seh...
open ur eyes big...

redsummer..

Labels: why do?

Feeling Lonely

ever felt that way before..
i guess u hav..
my sorry ass is alwys loney...
haha...i wana go out but everyones bz with wrk or their own frens..
somehw i feel lik i dun hav my own frens..
get wat i mean?
times wen u feel lik chatting with someone on the phone..
yet nobody calls or text u...
sad but true..
just now i was scearching for someone to talk to in my phone book..
there is so many numbers i cld call but yet i dun think they wana talk to me...
its their your family members number which im sure its not them u wana talk to...
or its your old schmates number if u call them its gona be sudden for them...
or your recent classmates number but u dun think u wana bother them..
or close frens in sch or juz frens u become close with..you dun wana call them as you find it weird to talk to them on the phone unless ur planning to go out together..
or numbers of guy which are your outside friends or ppl u nvr meet juz online chatting buddys...you dun knw if u should as they only msg u once in a blue moon...
then suddenly..
it hit u in the head that u actually are a sore loser..
no one wans you and that your frens are frens that juz lik hanging out wit you and that they find u abit weird n stuff..

maybe you are weird..
cuz your alwys living in your own world like now..
to much vivid imagination...
well you are who you are but sometimes change is needed..
but wat kind of change???
and hw do u actuali change yourself for the better??
thats wat ive been thinking?
i knw ive been pretty weird lately.
and my moood is at full swing nowadays...
howcome?

redsummer

Labels: feeling lonely

Friday, February 8, 2008

DRAMA QUEEN

i must confess im a drama queen...
haiz.. i juz dun knw la wat i wan in life..
i told my frens i close down my blog.. but actuali i juz change the url...
i dun somehw.. i dun wan my frens to knw the real cruel me..
it's juz not right.. i dun wan ppl to be clouded by my tots juz by reading my blog..
especially my family n frens i dun wana hurt them in a way..
but i still lik blogging..cuz the only way i could express my self fully!!
atleast now the world knows but the ppl closes to me wont...bcuz my blog is not private...
it may sound abit silly but i wan my thoughts to be heard by others but not by my family or frens..

Life is too complicated already...
i juz dun get life..
that y i say its a freak world..
and the only freak is me i guess as others juz being humans as they are..
backstabbing, bitching, hurting others, no equallity, shallow, hypocrite.. its goes on and on..
that's the cruel thing i hate abt life most..
but yet i hav some of the cruelty mention...
sometimes i juz dun get me..
i dun knw wat i wan..
i've juz realised wat a drama queen ive turn into..
and i hate that but i dun knw hw to change cuz i think i lik to be dramatic
thinking abt it make me sick but wen im it i feel kinda sorry for myself..
wat am i even saying..
im confuse..
im sick of my selfish ways..
sick of life sometimes..
but the good thing is i dun wana kill myself i still wana life n experince 'Life'
i guess..

Labels: drama queen

IRRITATED but watever..
I use 4 freaking eggs to do it..i tot she wld atleast try it.. but wen she saw the chilli sauce and the mayo.. she go EEEEEEk!!! den i say u dun hav to eat it if u dun wan eat.. den she said u use the eeg i put outside issit i wan to make maggie pls take out one for me!!! that reali shows she's not gona try it...
but i already boil alot of pasta..cuz she said she hungry den i oso hungry...so i decide to do that la..haiz.. NVM...atleast someone else who tried it appreciate it n said nice...atleast if she say not nice oso she tried it already...haiz.. i took 3 forks den put the food on the table near her... den i go take the laptop but she nvr even touch the food...so i set up the laptop in the kitchen n n took the food wif me...

now i have to finish up everything on my own....
but wat the hell
LIFE IS A FREAK..
IM A FREAK..
who cares rite...

Labels: irritated..

hey redsummer/ Little(BIg la) Miss FREAK!! here haha..,

who else rite? beloo...

PACKED 2WEEK!!!

well so called atleast..

Thursday-Went out with the gals to Bugis...

Friday-Expo and mkn Mee Soto and Aisyah came ovr den meet my stepmom

Sunday- Swimming at Fiza chalet

Tue- Went to SGH

Wed- Swimming at Jurong Swimming Complex

Thursday, 7 Feb 2008

♥ Family ♥ BBQ

@ Busu's place in cck..

♥ younger cuzzie...

Yul, Fyqa, Myra, Putri, Ryan (anak saudara)

Kak Ani N Kak Sya watching Tv..

Kak Bai N Kak Ani(stiil starching her head.. ada liece ke??)

Kak Sya Enjoying the Corn marinated in Coconut Milk..

My day was ok another FFOODDIE FEAST..

there were BBQ chicken, satay, sambal stinray, corn, hotdog, crabstick....

other non-bbq foodie includes spicy fried rice, lontong, jemput2, sandwiches and etc.

oh yah!! kak ani bought Sceret Recepie Chocolate Indulgence..n aunty ask her too to surprise her husband(his bday la)..

den we watch kak Nor wedding video..haha..

very FUN cuz 'so called' the whole family is there...Mom was still at wrk..

she did the afternoon shift today so she finish at 10 n will head straight to aunty place...

and i juz came back lik 1/2 hr ago..haha

ANYWAY!!

I wana watch L Change The World - Death Note 3..

watch the both Death Note 1 & 2 already and i really like it..

it OPENS 21 Feb 2008 in Singapore..

looking forward to watch it..

Anyone wana tagg along ? dun knw wan to go with who...

that all..

you know u WANT me

XOXO

♥ redsummer

Labels: Familly bbq, L change the world

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

FINALLY!!
♥ Surayya and Fateha came to the west ♥

Went SWIMMING wif my 3 fav ♥ Gurls @ Jurong Swimming Complex
picture taken after our swim...

me SHIOK sendiri...haha..
no 'sexy' swimsuit pose today..
ONly ''sexy'' hot pants pose..
lame..

Me n LIz..
accidentily delete this kinda picture wif the others..haiz..sori gals...
wanted to rotate it but accidentily deleted it off..SOWIE!!

Walking toward IMM to get some FOOD!!
Hungry aftr all the SWIM..haha
nxt headed to my CRIB..yea...
im love to hav them at my lovey hm..

Them Wif HAMMIES..
Fa in LoVE WITH ADIK(name of one male hammie)
SUe in LOve wif Mummy and BABY(name of hammies)
LIz..juz kinda scard to hold them..haha

Chilling out watchin GOSSIP GIRLS...
haha..
fa actually feel aslp den we took her picture n put adik on her arm when she was slpping..

FOOD FEAST!!
We had Burger king @ IMM
den after fateha woke up she felt hungry
and they all had Maggie curry..i had rice..
after that chilling outside..den fateha when hm..
but liz n sue stayed behind..
My 2nd sis brought hm left overs of Fish & Co.
so we had that..and then
My 1st sis felt hungry den she ordered SARPINOZ..
Sham was wrking so we get his stuff discount and some freebie foodie!! Shh...
dun tell a soul..haha..
too bad fa had to go home already...

♥ LOVE THAT YOU GURLS CAME TO MY HOUSE AND PLAYED WITH THE HAMMIES ♥
please do come again..muacks...

this is for FATEHA..
'' and who am i? thats a sceret i'll never tell,
you know u love me
XOXO
gossip girl''
quoted frm gossip girl...

my own version...
and who am i?
if until now u dont knw who i am than ur a dummie...
you know u want me
XOXO
redsummer ♥

toddles

Labels: finally the gals came, food feast and Gossip girl