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Saturday, January 19, 2008
STAY HOME SATURDAY
Freaking bored at home...
no plans...and its a SATURDAY..
hw boring can i be..
haiz..
no one asked me out..not even my frens..
not a single msg from anyone since morning..
sometimes i think i don't even need to owned a handphone..
because nobody even contacts me..
boring..
but if i don't owen a fone den i can't contact othr ppl wen in need because we dont owen a landline at home..
every one have their own number n no one is hardly at home except me...so i guess tats y we dun have a home fone..
its is going to be a long boring post in my blog..cuz im freaking bored and i have a boring life..
sometime i wish i WaS BORN BEAUTIFUL or atleast PRETTY like everyone else in the family or my frens..
or atleast i was born slim or even Fat but pretty n every guy would stare at me wen i pass by..
but sadly i was born FAT and UGLY..
dun get me wrong..i love myself..
but most people juz dun get it n lik to say harsh tings and it hurts..
sometimes i try to ignore watever remarks they make..but im the kind of person who thinks alot especially at night wen i cant sleep..
i tink of all these thinks n i get sad or cry for no reason at all..
and i hate tat..
i tink of all the remarks or bad experience tat happen to me..
stupid rite i knw..
i juz cant seem to forget especially bed things tat happen to me.,..
n wen i look at my beautiful fren n family members..
bcause im ugly n now i hardly have anyone asking for my no. or even wanting to get to know me..
and now nobody even ask me on a date or juz chill or watever...its lik gona b 3 yrs of being single in feb n 2 yrs of being dateless in dec ..the last guy who ask me out n showered me with TLC was NIk Fazly ...n he is long gone.,..
and im all alone...all my frens have lik guys asking them to out,go watch movie or juz go out..i dun even hav a single one..n FADLY(kering) dosent count..his so irritating!!
n he only wants to go out wif me to fill his empty heart cuz his gf left him..and the last gf was to young for him..so im juz a spare part..but i dun cafre i hate him anyway..
haiz...
Am I that FUGLy?
hiaz...i KNw la the ans is yes n im freaking fat to start with..
sometime i feel i juz wana die jus so i dun hav to tink abt like n dun hav to listen to other FREAk who lik to talk abt fat n ugly ppl n give stupid remarks...
i dun mind if its a funny remark but went its harsh tat wats gona tick me..
haizz...
FREAK out...
Labels: random toughts
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