cherry on top of my day .

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Which is better,if
To be Frank wif ur friends and love ones or Just go with the flow and not speak up??

everyone has their own opinion..
well for my opinion..
if u treat that person as ur fren or if u really love that someone..
you should just speak UR MIND...
if anything they do is bothering you..
because if they treat u the same way they won't mind..
they would somehow be dissappointed 1st but in the end if they get wat u mean than they will realise their mistakes..
if we alwys just go wif the follow n never speak of wat is bothering us the other party wont know their mistakes..and they won't learn from it if no one is there to tell them..
in a way its good to speak up..but make sure u know wat ur doing..sometimes wen we speak up...
there will be a time wen we are in the wrong..then that's how we will learn from our mistakes too...
if u want people to listen to us..we must listen to them too...
sometimes it may hurt the other party or it may go the other way round ..but we should take it as a life lesson n learn from it..
because everyone makes mistake..
WE JUST NEED TO HELP EACHOTHER ALONG THE WAY...
as everyone has their own views on things..
some r better n some things that we are not..that y la we need eachother...haha
macam paham je la si syafa ni..haha...
juz a lil sumthing i was thinking abt today...

ABOUT MY DAY!!
well...abt sch...had fun..
played Liz PSP in class..played the game called BURNOUT!!
haha..i love that game...cuz u can crush other cars....
a way to venged out ur anger...
somesort la..
sumthing funny happen in sch...abt the toilet tingy..
our OWN VIP LADIES "night"...
haha...
erm...wat else eh..

OH yah!! tot of changing my blog link...
here are a few names i tot of...
>fakesmiles.blogspot.com - bcuz behind every smile sumtimes there is sadness
>liestodeceive.blogspot.com - got it from a song title by save ferries, anyway i lik tis cuz there is so many lies anyway..
>neurologicalproblem.blogspot.com - haha.. sumthing wrong wif my brain..
>itsafreakworld.blogspot.com - cuz somehow i lik the wrd freak nowadays

that all... i dun knw which one to choose...
haha...too many...maybe all u readers cld help me choose...
tag me which one u like best or give me a suggestion...
thnks loads...

TODDLES..
HUGS N KISSES TO ALL..

Labels: thoughts and feelings..frens? my day..choose a blog link for me

redsummer

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

to GUYS!!
Not all but some guys..who lik to do this play this kinda mind games...
i knw there is still some decent guys out there somewhere..
but to some guys!!
STOP IT with the sweet talk la!!
ONly say wat u mean la FREAK!!!
dun say it cuz u feel lik it..
dun bring our asses up so high n suddenly give us a huge down fall...
WARN US 1st
WARN us that ur juz being nice for nuts!!
that ur attach or MARRIED or even hav A FAMILY!!
freaking freaks...
I ASK u if ur attach..
n u said ur married la n wat stuff den u say u were only joking
and wen i ask again..
u said yes im married..u knw rite i told u b4
STOP LA
STOP PLAYING ARD WIF UR FREAKING WORDS..
IF UR MARRIED OR ATTACH JUZ SAY LA..
JGN BEBUAL BELIT BELIT BELO..
TU YG BUAT AKU SOD OTAK..
NAK CKP TAPI NAK BELIT2
SUKE SAKIT KN ATI ORG
TO THE GUYS WHO LIK TO PLAY THIS KINDA SICK GAMES..
YOU GONNA GET IT ONE DAY..
TGK JE LA.
ur gona get worst than this some sick gal gona play freaking mind games wif u guys till u cant handle it..
that's wat u guys wan rite that y u guys lik to play tis kinda sick games wif gals..
ARGH!!!

redsummer

IM Sorry abt my post juz now..
e one abt lets be frank..
i dun knw ah..
i easily change mood..
n i was in a pretty moody state juz now..
sori if i throw it out on u ct..didnt mean too..
maybe u shld be frens wif me la..
cuz ur alwys the main target i get mad at most of the time..
i hate hurting u that way..
sometime u easily tick me off...
actuli FAD kering oso..
source of irritance..
but to him i dun mind..cuz he is reali irritating..n i hardly talk to him anymore..
but to u sumtimes aftr i get angry i juz feel bad..n i hate that feeling..
n i know u hate me being angry at u too..
only that your too nice to say it..

HAVE you ever had one of those days tat u just suddenly feel like screaming at the top of your lungs for no apparent reason at all??
i tink i'm having tat kind of feeling right now..
i just wana scream n let go of everything..
to feel the rush of ur blood runing throw u wen u give it all n scream..
and wen u stop screaming u suddenly feel good n calm inside..
its like for that moment ur worries were all been carried away by ur screams..
and wen u finally got a grip of ur self again
all those worries come running back...
but because u hav juz scream ur lungs out u wan that feeling again n forget abt wat ur worries were..

That is wat i really wan to do RITE now!!
i hate being alone..
sometimes being alone n hav time for urself is wat everyone needs..
u need to somehow find urself again..
urself meaning ur true real self..
not the face that u show ppl wif juz to impress them or watever shit humans do
BUT JUZ BE YOU..
who you really are deep deep down inside..
somehow...
i feel like i lost myself...
I DUN remember who i really am...
my thinking are all messed up rite now..
i dun reali knw wat i wana say..
ARGH!!
y am i feeling tis way..
hate it seh...

Labels: thoughts and feelings..writings

redsummer

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Another day in sch...

haha...''SOME PEOPLE'' in class are kinda acting pretty weird...
hate it wen we r frens n some frens in the group juz has to whisper to each other
cannot share issit? if cannot share den on the phone den gossip la no need to gossip infront of the person n be mental abt it sia..JGN STEP CUTE La sis...cuz ur not k...ur juz a typical minah...
If u wana make it obvious to that person that ur whispering abt that person in front of that person...den might as well get it over n done with juz by saying straight to his or her face la..
more easy wat...at least the person know..den maybe the person could change or not be ur fren or hav a fight wif u or sumthing rite? DO you get wat i mean?!! if u don'tden too bad la k..hehe..
seriously seh irritating tau..

LETs BE FRANK...

to CT im sorry..
but i dun think we really are wat you call ''best fren'' i dun believe in that shit...
ur really someone i cld call a fren..cuz last time every time i need someone to accompany me to the clinic u r alwys willing...THANKS ALOT reali...from the bottom of my heart..
and u help me for lik 2 days straight..help me in my peribahasa for olvl...u teach me until at tat point of time i can reali remember all the peribahasa and its meaning...THANKS AGAIN..hmm.. watelse...and yea thnks for alwys coming down to toh guan to meet me...but now i find it kinda boring to lepak here la..haha

and were not best frens cuz u dun tell me everything n anything anymore..

u didnt even invite me to ur all so random private blog..

hmm..and THANKS FOR putting UP wif me wen i randomly get angry n irritated stuff...
ur alwys so KIND...
Thnks for listening to my all so boring problems last time...
I STILL TREASURE U AS A FRIEND..
UR ONE OF THE FRIENDS THAT I CAN KEEP...
UR REALLY A GOOD FRIENDS..
i dun think i hav a REAL best friend...
i rather hav lots of GOOD FRIENDS k...
and ur ONE of them k...
LOVE you CT...
sori if watever i say hurt u...

anyways...
here's a picture OF one of the 3 younger hammie NAMED 'Kecik' meaning small..

tat all..
emoistic post la..
pedih2 sikit ah..
haha..
to CT lots of HUGGSS N KISSES FOR YA..!!
SORRY ABT WAT I SAID K..

Labels: thoughts and feelings..writings

redsummer

Monday, January 28, 2008

Monday BLUESss....
Just another BORING DAY in sch...

There was only Liz, Idah and Lyana who came...
the others Sue, Fa, Fiza, Ain all M.I.A liao...
we learn nothing in FDM n WIM..
haha...but we took pictures during the break given...

STEP CUTE!!!

RANDOM PICTURES in my phone
CARE AND SHARE time..
or BUY AND SELL...haha

I really lik the beg below..
too bad la when i wanted to buy it..
it was already sold out..
the seller only had 20 of them..
all sold out...the price of the beg is $45..
if ANYONE have that beg n wana sell it..
still in good shape..
i wld buy it at $25-$35
so please contact me @ stuck_up_kid@hotmail.com
if u wana sell that beg..
thanks....

The box below if my PHOTO BOX...
full of captured moments on the hp tat i print out and neoprints taken in the past..
there is also things frm my past that i kept inside that box just for old memories...
there is also post cards...
mostly photo's la..
just thought of sharing it with my beloved readers...

that all..
toddles..
hugs and kisses..

Labels: .abt my day n buy n sell n care n share stuff, juz blogging

redsummer

Sunday, January 27, 2008

LUNCH WITH KAK SYA ♥
@ IMM, Secret Recipe..

Kak Sya's Meal..

My Meal...

there is cheese and ham in the chicken..
deliciouso...

Getting ready to dig iN...

i like the sause and salad that they give me...
the chicken not that tender..so not that nice ah...

here comes our dessert...
so fulling....

Kak Sya's blueberry cheese cake

Mine's Chocolate Indulgences...

Bought this new sling bag at IMM too..
20 bucks..
i split the cost wif kak sya cuz we're gona share the beg...

Thanks to KAK SYA ♥ for the meal...
P/S: sch starts 2moro..
ARGH!!
haha...

toddles...
hugs n kisses for all

Labels: juz blogging..

redsummer

SATURDAY NITE OUT...
Wee..!!!

My Fav CuzZie's Mom Came over N Cooked Chili Carb..
YuMmy ...

Ard 4 plus..
Aisyah called me up n ask me out..
follow her meet fauzi at vivo city after work...
den i called up su..ask if she wanted to tagg along
we meet up at lik 7 plus..haha
below picture of 3 of them..
CRaZy bUnch of pPl..
Fun to haNg OUt wif ..

Anyway..
Kak sya Gave me 20 dollars voucher for ESPRIT..
n i bought the tshirt below..
cute rite..
hav tat kinda retro feel..
actualli there is alot to choose..
but i can onli buy one so i ask them to choose for me..hehe

And guess wat!!
i didnt hav to pay a single cent..haha
the top is $24.90
but the person say today n 2moro there is 20% discount..
n summore i hav the card..
after the discount the top onli cost me $19.90..
haha..all i need to use is the $20 voucher..
so lucky seh..
its lik as if the top is totally free..
well i guess it is in a way rite?!

I took LOTS n LOts of PIC with MR FAUZI
the camwhore..haha

After getting my Top..
we went ard in search or a new watch for surayya..
below is her new BABY-G watch..
nice..i like..the casing for the watch is also pretty...

While SUe is bz...getting her watch
watelse can we do but take pictures of ourself..
haha..
reali feel lik a CAM WHORE today...

Den came along sue who join in the fun too..haha

ANd now its all me baby..
haha...juz feel lik taking photo's of my self...

PEACE!!

i reali had fun today even though i went out onli for awhile..
i get to meet my frens..
hehe..n also bcuz of kak sya i get to 'buy' a new top..hehe..
that all folks...

toddles..
HUGs n KISSes TO ALL...
♥

Labels: juz blooging on sat

redsummer

Saturday, January 26, 2008

ANother DAy anOther Story...
NOt...
well no story to tell abt today actuali..
i woke up n finally have the mood to clean HAMMIES homes..
so i wash n clean all their shit n give food..and let them bath in the sand..
and now im infront of Kak ani's laptop..haha
i didnt ask her if i can use it anot seh..cuz she's aslp..
aniway i wana change my blog song..
but don't knw which song to choose seh..
to many...

HMM..
MOving on...
MP test was fustrating cuz i totally lose 6 marks for the last question..
but its partly my fault cuz i study last min..
and for FDM..
i was so stress up cuz i tot i wouldnt knw tat i could do House B/L
as i onli had lik 2 or 3 practices on it as im always using the internet during the lesson..haha
but i manage to print everything..n i guess everything is corret..haha
if not total of 80 marks for both Master n House B/L is gona be gone ..
haha..
i dun mind if i get juz passed as long as i dun fail...
but if i do fail..
atleast i know i TRIED my best to DO the test..
there is alwys going to be dissapointment in life
U CANNOT ALWYS GET WHAT YOU WANT
its best to LEARN FROM MISTAKES AND
PULL YOURSELF UP EVERYTIME YOU FALL
AND JUZ KEEP TRYING...

Words of WISDOM..
macam paham!!
haha...

today i guess its going to be another STAY HOME SATURDAY!!
hiaz...nvm..im broke anywayz...
I ONLI HAV lik 8 bucks in my bank..patethic, i know!
every wk i save 5 bucks or more frm my allowance..
and now it has onli total up to 20 bucks..haha
n i have 10 bucks to spare tis wk..which i tink im gona save..
n yea..not forgetting..my 2nd sis owes me 5 buck..she juz paid me back juz now!!
YEA..n guess wat she 3x 5bucks of the money...so im rich of 15 bucks now..
TYPICAL but wen ur broke every single cent counts..haha
now i sound lik a money minded person..haha
siakz...

that all for this boring posts..
and CONGRATS to the OLVL takers Who retake N GET BETTER Grades this time ard..
Especially TO
AIRPORK!! CT!! N my CLASSMATES...

toddles all...
huggies...

Labels: juz blogging boredem

redsummer

Thursday, January 24, 2008

PICTURES FRM YESTERDAY's
MOVIE NIGHT
with Kak Sya N Fav CUzZie..

The satay and the PRAWNS!!
MY FAV!!

FAV CuzZie N Me...

Don't hav any recent picture with my sister la..
i only hav tis..
atleast its a picture of me n Kak sya...

PICTURES TAKEN EARLIER TODAY
IN SCH..
WIM LESSON..
taken by FAIZ..
thnkz BRO..haha

We juz cant have enough of the new salon chairs..
its for the hairstyling course..

Lastly..
just ME, Myself and Fiza at the back..
haha...

we came to sch juz for practical lessons...
Liz, Fa, Su n me...
had alot to eat today..haha
we meet at simei n ate at banquet..
but i didnt hav ban mian today..
more lik fish ball noddle day..
after tat we had bubble tea...
n we make our way to sch..
aftr sch we initially wanted to hav ice cream..
we ended up having cold dessert...
i had colourful ice kacang!!
YUMMY!!
tat's all nothing much happen in sch..
didn't saw him in sch today too..sobs*

well...
that all i have for u readers today...
TODDLES..
Hug n KIsses...hehe

Labels: juz blogging abt my day...

redsummer

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

MOVIE NIGHT
with Kak Sya♥ and FAv CUzZie♥...

We watch AMERICAN GANGSTER...
finally get to watch it..haha
the movie started at 7 but we reach the cinema at 730..we miss the front part of the movie..
but i read the book halfway thru..so i knw the starting part of the show..
it really good..no dissapointment ..the movie ended at 9.30..haha..
we had dinner or supper at youth park kopitiam..
had the satay..i love the prawns..i hav pictures but lazy to upload now..another time maybe..haha..reach hm at abt 12 i tink..n here i am..

something else happen today tat im proud of..haha
FOR THE 1St TIME...
I CAME TO SCH ALONE..
I TOOK THE LIFT ALONE..
AND WALK TO CLASS ALONE..
haha...im glad i did it..
but i dun think i wana do it again..haha..
usually if my buddy liz..nvr go to sch..
i will die2 find someone else to go sch wif me even if they r not schling there haha..
n they hav to send me to the lift area where i meet my other frens to go to class together..
haha...
idah is usually the one who will wait for me at the lift area if liz is not ard..
aftr class..we went to the swimming pool toilet and me n idah chatted non stop..hehe...its between me, her, fiza n liz..haha...abt guys la..

I HAVE A CONFESSION to make..
i lik this guy since ending of sec 3...
n until now i kinda still hav a crush on him la..haha
cuz he is still in the same sch wif me..
my legs gets wobbely n i stumbles on my wrds everytime im ard him..haha'
he's freaking cute..
n he's smile juz make u wana melt in his arms..haha
but i juz couldnt tell him upfront tat i lik him..
cuz i dun wan him to ignore me bcuz of it..
i dare to confess it in my blog cuz he dun even knw i hav a blog and there is zero chance of him knowing im talking bt him..haha
Only my sisters..
secondary sch mates..
and my 7 Lovely Gfs knows who he is..
i reali lik him...
bcuz he dosent only hav a sweet smile
he has a sweet n charming macho kinda personality la..haha
tat y i lik him so much..
i still remember all the sweet things that he done or said to me before..
i simply juz cant get it out of my mind..
haha...

tats all
im starting sch at 10 am..
need to go to bed now..
TODDLES..

PS: Nazz..if ur reading tis..PLZ PLZ PLZ...msg me n tell me wats happening? i cant get u on the fone n not even in msn...ur msn nick is very disturbing tau..y do u hate ur self n y u wana die ? wat happen at wrk? u can talk to me k? plz get back to me ASAP!!

Labels: 1st for everything and confession, juz blogging, movie

redsummer

Monday, January 21, 2008

TO MY FAV CUZZIE ♥
and TO FATEHA ♥ AND SURAYYA ♥!!

Thanks for all of ur concerns...
i ♥LOVE ♥ U all..

my blog is juz where i pour my sorrows out...
sometimes its juz hard to talk about it..face to face..
it easier to blog about it and tats wat i did...
i appreciate tat u gals read my blog n show some concerns..
honestly..
i like the attention...
but i didnt did it because of the attention ..
its juz out of the blue..

and to my fav cuz..
i read ur blog entry..
haha.. yea i know there is no one perfect in this world..
the ones who think they are perfect are all FREAKZ,..haha
thanks for the entry tat is dedicated to me..haha
but onli some big gals are beautiful
I guess im juz PRETTY ON THE INSIDE..haha.
haha..self phrase...note tat..

I'm really grateful to have all of u gals in my LIFE..
KiSSES and HUgGies for all..

can't wait for tomorrow..
kak2 body going to the gym or juz jogging..
we juz wana be HEALTH ppl not because we wana slim down..
maybe that too but to juz a healthy weight ah..haha..
n after that going out wif my 1st sis n my fav cuzzie..
♥ ♥ ♥

that all for now..
toddles...

Labels: to my fav ppl in the world..

redsummer

Sunday, January 20, 2008

TITLE: Another Weekend Has Passed Or going to Passed soon in a few hours..

another weekend gone juz by staying at home..
2 days worth of doing something else..
something new..
but its all been trash anyway..
2 days of being an emo n a loser..
could something better had happen?
random thoughts..
running in my mind again..
as always..
memories of the unspoken past played again..
it seems like it was yesterday when he was still with me..
but it all gone now..
i keep telling my self I HAVE TO MOVE On..
and for awhile i thought i did move on..
new surrounding n getting to knw new strangers
is not enough to move on ..
and forget everything tat has happen..
its going t o be 2 yrs soon..
still..im thinking of u
darn u ass..
y do u have to have facebook!!
i already lost u in frenster..
n now i found in facebook..
is it a sign or r u juz out to pissed me..
i dun even knw y im freak..
his move on n yet im still stuck in the past..
i could forgive
but i can nvr FORGET..
u left a big scar on my ass
no more on my heart..
haha..im going boinkers..
pls someone help me..
PULL ME OUT OF MY OWN MISERY..
ease my pain...
create new unforgettable memories with me
will you plz..
plz help me...
im not dieing..
im juz drowning in my own sorrows..
i need u..
to pull me out and let me breath again...

hope you like it..its all from within..
toddles...
another day another story to be told..

Labels: thoughts and feelings..writings

redsummer

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!
In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.
At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.
How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding
When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's" Your Personality Type?

Labels: for fun

redsummer

Saturday, January 19, 2008

STAY HOME SATURDAY

Freaking bored at home...
no plans...and its a SATURDAY..
hw boring can i be..
haiz..
no one asked me out..not even my frens..
not a single msg from anyone since morning..
sometimes i think i don't even need to owned a handphone..
because nobody even contacts me..
boring..
but if i don't owen a fone den i can't contact othr ppl wen in need because we dont owen a landline at home..
every one have their own number n no one is hardly at home except me...so i guess tats y we dun have a home fone..

its is going to be a long boring post in my blog..cuz im freaking bored and i have a boring life..

sometime i wish i WaS BORN BEAUTIFUL or atleast PRETTY like everyone else in the family or my frens..
or atleast i was born slim or even Fat but pretty n every guy would stare at me wen i pass by..
but sadly i was born FAT and UGLY..
dun get me wrong..i love myself..
but most people juz dun get it n lik to say harsh tings and it hurts..
sometimes i try to ignore watever remarks they make..but im the kind of person who thinks alot especially at night wen i cant sleep..
i tink of all these thinks n i get sad or cry for no reason at all..
and i hate tat..
i tink of all the remarks or bad experience tat happen to me..
stupid rite i knw..
i juz cant seem to forget especially bed things tat happen to me.,..
n wen i look at my beautiful fren n family members..
bcause im ugly n now i hardly have anyone asking for my no. or even wanting to get to know me..
and now nobody even ask me on a date or juz chill or watever...its lik gona b 3 yrs of being single in feb n 2 yrs of being dateless in dec ..the last guy who ask me out n showered me with TLC was NIk Fazly ...n he is long gone.,..
and im all alone...all my frens have lik guys asking them to out,go watch movie or juz go out..i dun even hav a single one..n FADLY(kering) dosent count..his so irritating!!
n he only wants to go out wif me to fill his empty heart cuz his gf left him..and the last gf was to young for him..so im juz a spare part..but i dun cafre i hate him anyway..
haiz...

Am I that FUGLy?
hiaz...i KNw la the ans is yes n im freaking fat to start with..
sometime i feel i juz wana die jus so i dun hav to tink abt like n dun hav to listen to other FREAk who lik to talk abt fat n ugly ppl n give stupid remarks...
i dun mind if its a funny remark but went its harsh tat wats gona tick me..
haizz...

FREAK out...

Labels: random toughts

redsummer

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

DINNER @ ZINGDO

with Kak Sya

The food wasn't as nice.. it was more to salty...

especially the fried mushroom and the chicken balls..

but our hotplate beef (kak sya's) and hotplate chicken (mine) is nice..

i like the chili sause..haha..

atleast i was pretty full after i ate..

well, i am still full..haha..

because before this i was really2 hungry..

sue and me ate only chicken porridge in sch..

so that is why we were hungry ..

and what wrost was..haha..here's the story..

i was bored..in WIM class and i was chatting in msn wif my sis so i ask her if there is any gd website i should visit..

she gave me lots of links to blogs..

n i choose this blog.

cookingismypassion.blogspot.com

lots of yummy stuff there...

i get to view lots of the photos in FDM class..

the photos this blogger took of her food creation were to drool for..haha

and her cakes n cupcakes are so make believe...i dun tink i would eat it if she had given me some..haha..so tat's wat makes me really2 HUNGRY after sch juz now..

n sue was saying abt eating all this yummy food..

i drool even more..haha

Yesterday in TKS CLASS

that class was really patethic sia..

cuz there were lik onli 7 of us including me..haha

all the others don't know where..

AIN, IDAH, ME N SURAYYA